Monday, December 04, 2006
Been troubling me lately. Big thoughts kept hitting me.

I thought through almost everything and conclude them to be all the same. It's not worth it. What's really worth it then? If I remain nonchalent, do I still have things that I want? Or were they never really there?

I think about my interest, and hopefully able to earn some cash from it. Do I really love to design, or is it there to distract? Or is it just a ego boost?

Sometimes I wonder if I've given up on myself. No totally definitely. I wish the end is nearing. No, not death. End, in another form. Some days, you wish something can cheer you up in the most unexpected way.

I lie to myself and everyone I know.

Why do things keep popping up to remind me of useless things? I've not forgotten if that's what you want to know. Why does your mind always stop at the most painful things ever? Is it a reaction to slap yourself and wake you up to the cruelty of everything? Nothing's that nice. Nothing's that beautiful.

You made a casual comment to ask if I'm sure. I said yes. And you said do not regret. I don't. You said something else that shocked me. Something that I feel the same.

Repeat.

gwen stefani ~ luxurious

2:47:00 AM;

!SUPERME

I love beads and buttons
I love tin boxes
I am a geek
I have an obsession with silkscreen

!MYCOLOURS

the proud cedarian
the reluctant saint
the band geek
the wannabe poseur
the cool royal
the college poet

!BUBBLES
Polaroid & Lomos
Millenium Falcon
PowerBook
2046 OST & DVD
Lightbox
that Juicy Couture necklace

!YOURSPLASHES
myband
sajcband
rkgang
royal
amanda
baochern
bingo
crystal
dawn
germaine
hoonie
jas
jess
mel
zhu
addison
alecia
aloo
amy
andre
angeline
anita
benji
deon
elaine
eef
ellyne
huishan
jacky
jeremy
jincheng
joanne
joey
kok
liangshi
may
melvyn
peace
selina
surong
szuxiang
taupok
terrance
wenmin
xiuli
yaofeng
yingwen
zhijian
aileen
alex
amanda dance
amanda small
ansley
benjamin
cheryl
cirong
jiaen
jonathan
joyce
kayhock
kai
kerui
krystal
sarah
seok
suf
sheah
veroy
winnie
wynnie
yang

!SCRIBBLES