Thursday, February 03, 2005
Lost an entry last night.

As I struggle physically, I wonder how long more before a mental breakdown. Suddenly I feel sleepy. As I hear the song playing on the radio, I wonder how long more before I get over with many things.

I tried to make a bad day my day. Futile attempts, I'm still floating in cosmos. Yaofeng asked me something very funny in the morning. I really wonder why. Maybe I should just hide in a corner and sleep and not wake up ever. Sidenote, why do I keep hearing the gates locking at NYJC? They only have 2 gates right? Haha.

I keep thinking I'm waiting for something. I just have this thing in my heard to tell me to keep waiting. But whatever for? Maybe something fresh, something to change or adjust my mindset. Sometimes I don't have the guts, sometimes just too curious. Well, whatever, things don't turn up fine. I'm not unhappy or any sort, I'm restless.

Sometimes I keep thinking about and anticipate the return of lost things. But the magic lies during the time when you came in contact with it. Things change don't they? Even if they do return, will things eventually work out? Are there still fireworks? Wherever the za-za-zoom is. Any ways, it's just a thought.

I had a lot of thoughts but I'm sleepy. Insufficient energy to recall.

+mood+ down
+listening+ smashing pumpkins ~ 1979