Monday, January 03, 2005
No matter what people say, whatever I try to convince myself, I can't do it. I can't lie to myself. No matter how tough it becomes, I can't lie. I can't help but to continue killing myself this way. I tried, many times, very hard. It's not working I don't know why. I wish I could squeeze a lil space for myself. Is everyone hiding? I see what I don't want to see, I hear what I don't want to hear. I feel disgusted. My eyes hurt. Stupid bug. Now I can't even close my eyes and sleep in peace.