Sunday, January 16, 2005
Hey blog. So what's up? I've got some green tea left over from yesterday. Want some?

Attended funeral today and be goody-ansy-pants. Did some econs and bitch with my cuz. Main topic today. The ugly loser boyfriend. Oh just kill me. Stephanie just can't stop bitching about him. Hahaha. Sarah is like so turned off too. Hahaha. And Sarah is so smitten by stuart and alvin. So funny. Her cute dude is quite cute lah, daniel or something. Oh then we kept going on about gabriel, their younger brother. Like how hot he is and gonna be so can't ruin it by sending him to SJI or some weird boys' school and he's so gonna join sports. Then Lihao came along after the two left. Bitched somemore about the ugly boyfriend. Just can't stand it. Hahaha. Oh in between Kerli came and we bitched about it too. Hahahaha. Rest of the evening is just with Lihao and his HCJC encounters.

Yesterday was fun at avalon though amanda pangseh me. Great that kiyoko is there. Haha, my new dance buddy. Yay! And that guy whom I can't remember the name, the lame jokes dude. Wah, damn lame lahhhh! Then kelly lamer and that gibbson-lookalike went through last week routine with us and got me new balukus everywhere. Had fun at beatboxing. Many new sounds. Cheers! But not there yet. Bm Tsk K Bm Tsk K Bm Tsk. Hahaha.

Dreamt of something with a strong impression. Dreamt of this major orientation thing at this building, like a shopping centre. A big one but like serangoon central, the neighbourhood kinda stuff. I was looking for something. I can't remember which shops I went into, hunting for whatever stuff. Came to this open auditorium and saw other JC kids, majority victorians and tjcians. Or maybe just them. I don't remember blue uniforms. Went into this foodcourt and saw this table of tjcians. No prizes for guessing correctly who I saw. Just like before, only with a dark green bag. The feeling I had in the dream was so real. I felt very embarrassed and not knowing what to do. Well, decided to pretend he's invisible and walked pass. He kept looking in my direction. I just pretended to look for something and took the chance to look back. Seeing him doing fine and everything makes me feel very relieved. It's like no more regrets for me because I finally get to see him. For a while I thought it is true till I kept walking and realised it's just a dream.

I've forgotten when that I've already accepted that I can bear to do nothing and take it that we're not together and still like him very much. Days that I believe that bittersweet things exist in a beautiful way.

Tomorrow is a long day. Hopefully I can buy shoes tomorrow.

+mood+ relaxed
+listening+ alicia keys ~ you don't know my name