Saturday, December 18, 2004
Okay fine. I'm going out soon. Lazy lah. Phantom of the Opera. Hahaha. Hear the running notes behind the big sound? That's my job! Hahaha.

Somehow I feel that my life is being interrupted. I don't know by what. It seems incompleted. Not empty, just something that's unfufilled. Hahaha. Not as if I'm a dying man, just that it stops me from living to the fullest. Where's the zest man!? Hahaha. The moment I stop and think about my lil life of nothing, I know it's time to go out. Hahaha. Hey kid, brace up and start doing some work. Maybe it's my horoscope. Cancerian with touches of scorpio characteristics. Contradicting though. Monogamous but it comes and goes so quickly. Perfectionist and too much of a thinker. That's like the worst combination ever. Yet the big picture is home. Sometimes I really just wanna retreat to somewhere cosy and be happy there for the rest of my life. I picture my house with a red gate, a purple wall and a red couch and other walls white. It's so vivid in mind yet so far. It's not an everyday affair that someone changes your mindset.

Family is throwing a lil bbq party for christmas. Bing, maybe you'll like to come over instead. Mahjong all ready too. Hahaha, mummy was so funny. She's like always inviting zhijian whenever we have big or small bbq parties or whatever. I'm like aye we broke up like 3 months ago lah, how many times you want me to say? How many times you want to invite this stranger friend? Hahaha. Her memory is so ridiculous lah. Then she'll always say the same thing, aiyo haven't meet properly then no where already, bring new one lah. So ridiculous lah, I had this conversation like 89 times already. Hahaha. Can't stand my parents impression of him.
Mum: Aye, guy or girl? You said boyfriend right? "Boyfriend" ah?
Dad: Very bad impression ah, mother-in-law invite him for the first time then don't wanna turn up. Better luck next time. Tell him I used to play rugby. (me: -_-")
Actually my parents had never been strict about such things lah. Even with hisa was fine.
Mum: First girlfriend she brought home. Eat more lah, one more bowl of rice?
Dad: Watch the parade lah, don't go out. Can see fireworks from our house. The planes fly pass here too.
I think my parents always say the most ridiculous things at the most ridiculous times. -_-" Quite a funny thing to think back on. The times that daddy run into me, at void deck or outside. Somehow whenever I change to someone new, he'll always find out. Never felt like I shouldn't tell them. I'm a honest kid. I just can't lie. Hahaha, I'm serious man, stupid things like so the ketchup is under the bed, of course I can lie about such things lah. Hahahaha. Or like you know Barney is spawned by bushmen? That's why it got no hair and on the darker tone of skin, etc.

Okay, enough of crap for tonight. I'm going out. Lalala.

+mood+ down
+listening+ janet jackson ~ doesn't really matter