Wednesday, December 15, 2004
Just came back from QYO concert. Pretty cool but not really impressed, the first few pieces were neat though. Aiya, shan't talk about that, nothing much actually. Sentosa was cool in the morning. Guess I'm really the sunshine, hardly rained today. Got a new set of tanlines again! Haha. Not very active today though. Where is my sunshine!? Hahaha, someday someday, the rain will stop.

Thoughts that flow at 1am, sometimes you wonder if it's truly how you feel or you're just sleepy and drunk. Yesterday I thought of zhijian and things he said, and things we did. He's right, memories do stay. But then when I woke up, I felt very silly. It's weird, at one point of time the feeling is so strong and then it's poof! gone. Feelings are feelings after all, there's nothing I can do actually. I don't control how I feel seriously, let whatever's supposed to happen, happen. Today I avoided taking a straight bus home from suntec due to the stupid reason that normally when I take that bus home, I'll be on the phone with him or with him. It's so screwed man. There's no way we're ever gonna be together again, I know that very well, but it's just lingering there. Haha, maybe when I say I love him to bits, I mean it. Oh well, feelings are still feelings, there's nothing I can do to not like him right? So just let it be. Miss then miss lah, hahaha.

Yesterday I was in a ILOVEYOU mood, so I told everyone that. Liangshi told me he has a weak heart, don't scare him. Haha, accidentally tested the waters. So I guess, I can forget it. Haha. It's too difficult to get close to him lah. I'm not even close to him how can I even like him right? Stupid kids. Anyway, I can rant no more. So goodnight.

+mood+ burnt
+listening+ fiona apple ~ across the universe