Thursday, November 11, 2004
Been cool lately. Hanging out with many many friends. Catching up with a lot. That's good. Now that I've time for many people. BUT, I'm not staying at home enough. So played scrabble with mummy today. Hahaha. SHE WON LAH! Hahaha. Damn it. And why do I have so much black chocolates at home? I'm getting sick of them. Hahaha.

Been thinking do I really need a relationship with one special person. Guess not. Guess I'll be happier this way. Okay lah bing, was going to go after this girl that you all know. But after the no-positive, all-negative responses, I decided to give that up. Not because I'm just giving in to you all alright!? It's just that, I've always been better off alone right? I'm not a social butterfly but I drift close and far all the time. Although once in a while I still feel cheated, betrayed, unjustly done. Well, it's either me or him that will do this to the other. And so he's faster. Haha, I'm just unlucky to think that I should be serious on this one. Hahaha, well, superstars make mistakes too. I've tons of time to do many things now. Just not much this holidays. A time to relax and to clear up the mess. Too many pre-planned plans which are not gonna happen. So I guess I'll just come as things go. It's after he left then I realised I've got many things to tell other people, got many books to read. Guess what!? I know more 101 useless facts. Hahaha. Get to have more serials marathon. I've always thought I'm pretending to be happy. Maybe I've always been happy. It's just that once or twice I'm sad. Yay? Haha.

Aww man, haven't bought national geographic. The cover is some new earths thing. My childhood favourite topic. Always wanted to be an astronaut or astronomer. Hahaha. Used to have this lil notebook all on stars and planets and galaxies and one on earth. Hahaha, so cool right? Was a walking encyclopedia. Hahaha. I had many dreams before. I don't know what happened, many didn't grow up with me. Haha, I don't know what I really want in life actually. I need some time to think all these through. I really need to make some practical plans. It's my survival plan, do not laugh at me. I live for such things.

Okay, gonna read. Night.

+mood+ lalala
+listening+ lauryn hill ~ can't take my eyes off you