Wednesday, October 20, 2004
Zhijian.
I really did wait for a while. I'm uncertain if I'm still waiting but that's beside the point. You taught me and made me see alot alot of things during this period. Things that never occurred to me before, things that I've always taken for granted and neglected. Little things that I always thought they should be looked into but I've never done so myself. There are many happy moments but I know ultimately I was struggling. I wanted to put in my best but I know I didn't. It turns out you've got an ugly side too. I don't blame you, things happen. I'm sorry you've have to put up with all my nonsense all these while. You have your own set of problems, I shouldn't be questioning anyway. I just wanna tell you that I really fell for you. I don't know what does that mean truly but I wished all these never happened. So bad that I wished I never knew you. Maybe you were just never mine, everything was never meant to be. All the best.