Tuesday, August 03, 2004
Think I've kinda gotten back my drive to study. When this happens, all other things will get neglected. Hmm, yeah, that's what I can remember. Isn't it good? I wouldn't be thinking of other things. There's quite a few things on my mind lately. Sometimes I forget my own true piorities. They're all just going haywire.

Yes, I'm finally paying attention at all lectures again. That's cool. As long as I pay attention, I can remember anything and everything about maths on the spot. Doesn't happen for the rest though. That's sad, thought I can just sit back and relax just a bit. Oh I realised I've got DOF and not COF for common tests. Hahaha, big difference. That's about it for academics. Still running away from Ms K.

There are peeps who asked me about me and ZJ. Hmm, actually out of a sudden, I don't feel as much anymore. Hmm, I'm not sure. It's a sine graph kinda thing. Maybe I'm never meant for such things. I'm better off left alone. It has always been this way. Don't really wanna hurt another kid like again. I'm not even thinking hard about it. It seems that people around me are more worried than I am. Why? Shouldn't I care? But I thought it's just a world of our own? Why should people comment? The other day I thought it was all okay when we talked about our views on things. Maybe it's just me. Yeah, it has always been about me. I'm just easily confused I guess. I don't even know if I really like him. Most people are just another friend to me. Well, just because I can survive on my own doesn't mean I can't have someone else right? Flings are flings after all, I don't expect them to go far, never did. Bell.

Huishan is rather convinced to join band again. I'm glad. Like something off my mind now at least. Forgot to tell ZJ just now. He's not needed to come back next year. Haha. Miss having the 1st-intakers around. Miss the 1st 3months band. It was so different. Understood what he mean now. If only we can all just start all over.

Falling and crashing without aimlessly. Wandering and wondering.

+mood+ melancholy
+listening+ Nat King Cole ~ Nature Boy