Monday, June 28, 2004
Gotten over with my first and longest paper of the common tests. General paper. Did an essay on marriage. Nah, just thought it was simple. Well, got to use American Beauty as my classic example yet again. The comprehension was quite bad, just hope I do okay to pass. Haven't really been doing much on Econs. Good luck dear me.

After doing my essay, didn't really wanna read through it. It was more or less crap, hmm managed to read till the third paragraph, so I guess it was good till the third. While I was doing the comprehension I didn't feel like sitting for the test anymore. I was thinking and thinking about why am I doing this. Yeah, why am I doing this? Why did I choose to sit for this test in this JC? I don't know, then I thought about how people treat and think of me. Never played a big part in anyone's life. Nah, there's nothing depressing about this. Then, I thought about my emotions. Have I ever been jealous? Have I ever hated someone I could pull the trigger and blow his head off? Have I ever cried for someone that meant so much to me? If I can go back in time, there's a lot of things I actually wish to change. I know if these things hadn't happened, I wouldn't be here. But if I can start all over again, I would. It's quite surreal to realise that I've thought of so much within that short time frame. You know, sometimes 1min is equivalent to 10min in my own world.

I hate how the world is treating the world. No matter how ridiculous and bizarre it may sound coming from me, I hate people playing with the natural world. I hate to see the depletion of the nature. Why can't people stop thinking about themselves for a while and look at this world. I love this place. Why is the world dying? I've always wanted to become a zoologist when I was a kid, when I first discover the zoo and san diego zoo. Hah, guess it will never happen, wonder why I didn't take up biology. All is nothing but a dream. Stop hurting animals.

I've started a happy version of this blog. Well, and so I changed this blog from monologue to monologue -reversed-. They are not exactly opposites. The template is different. Hmm, change it when I've the time. There's a lot of things to do. A lot of designs to work out. And there's always time.

+mood+ blank
+listening+ garbage ~ you look so fine