monologue -reversed-

2010-09-26T20:04:00.002+08:00

I haven't explore the functions in blogger quite properly but I found someone who cared about my worries about 5 years ago. Haha. An anonymous commenter, thank you, although it's five years late.

I have been consciously thinking about not thinking. Hahaha. It's almost a sense of guilt. Do I have far too many small regrets in life? Or do I have nothing meaningful that I can hold on to? Perhaps perhaps. Sometimes I wonder if I have been overly happy all my life that I can't handle sadness. I mean I'm not depressed, I can't take sadness seriously. I'm a tad upset about that, funny?

Well, I say every other day that I wanna be a rockstar and live my moment. I kept missing the moment these days. I keep regretting about many things, big and small, but really nothing major. Because they're all small things, they become ant bites. Sore but not fatal but sore. And yet, I can't point out the specific pain.

After years of saying I wanna run away, I realized you really can't. You already know, unless you knock yourself out and suck some memory out, you really can't. Ahh, I would knock myself out. Do I want to check some things off my list, yes I do. Be a lil braver, and so I kept telling zou-san.

Ah even my closest friends say they don't understand me. Haha I'm doomed to be never consoled. I'm quite tired these days. Oh not emotionally, I'm tired physically. I hope to hear more happy stories from the rest of the world. I was very happy when I found out about Lemon the other day. Maybe I've lost a lil bit of myself into this but I found a lil more through something else too. Forces of the universe still balanced.

Keep cheering!

2010-05-20T18:17:00.001+08:00

Hello been a while.

Crazy busy still, though a lil happier being busy these days!

Am I crazy to reject the offer? I am not even that sure if my reasons are justified. Argh. Can I afford a 2 month internship? Oh ho ho.

Okay talk a lil more since I don't have many blog fans, there's not much of a point to talk in circles? Hahaha. "You wasted time on a chit chat" Sorry this line is stuck in my head.

HAPPY GRADUATION HUIMIN. What happened so far. I almost got a shock when Astrid asked where my thesis is. First impression was my thesis did not like academic, she overlooked. Ah, I'm not banging on a good grade now despite the amazing built-up of you improved the most in class. Sigh, never good in presentations and those final products. Sucks huh, I usually run out of stamina by then.

I am still going Tokyo in august to talk through my offer and look for other alternatives or say, better choices. Well it hit me one fine day when Riko said aren't you sick of your Japanese boss yet? Hmmm I thought about it and seems like I should explore another city now. I want to get lost in a city all over again. Not like I won't get lost in Tokyo, Tokyo Station is still a mystery to me. Seriously where does all these people come from! I don't want to be sick of Tokyo. Unless! I get to do some sort of underground cult fashion magazine design of the indie crowd. That's different then. Or if I can work for Fudge or Brutus...that's different then. Not even work, I'm honestly thinking of doing an internship. Well pretty much, I'm not strapped for cash or in a hurry to get suck into the rat race. While I'm still interested in doing my own stuff and funding my hobbies, I might as well have a go at it. While the drive is still burningggg.

I'm curious about Hong Kong and Seoul and Shanghai. Seoul seems like a quirky place. Assured by Sam recently. I'm just shortlisting it to the Asia side. If anything goes wrong or if I go uncrazy, I can come home quickly. But really I find Asian faces on the big names mag a lot more quirky, edgy than the usual, pretty much original editions. All of suddenly I am not that keen on advertising. Maybe it will come back one day, I don't know. But I wish I am more capable for the fashion magazines world. I am not even that sure what I can offer them. Is it a lil late to think about this, almost a month after graduating? Hahaha. Hush hush, I'm still rolling in the dough as of this minute. I'm not going crazy.

Should all of you be worried? Ahhh I don't think so! I have returned from my 101 adventures in one piece didn't I!? Am I too old for this? OF COURSE NOT! Will I apologize to Tokyo one day and go back to her cold hostile arms? Hahaha, maybe, who knows? Now now, let's just wait for some nice replies? I don't know. I haven't even sent out many mails yet.

Days of a rockstar. Slowly slowly beginning.

2010-03-13T11:24:00.003+08:00

Seriously have not felt so tired before. I'm not kidding when I say my eyebags are taking over my eyes. The end is near, I'm glad. I know I shouldn't say this out aloud, but I really wanna take today off. I think I can afford it? I don't know. I'm done with pre-production, I need to get into production now. I'm scared of next week. Scarves and the photoshoot and the packaging. HOU MAI GAWD. Madness.

I'm tired. I haven't slept for days.

2010-02-24T18:49:00.002+08:00

I'll tell you when I think you've forgotten.

I can't take jokes very well. Or I take jokes seriously. I don't quite understand the rules sometimes.

Uncertainty within is worse than broken.

I'm beginning to feel hopeless.

2010-02-23T13:24:00.002+08:00

I suddenly miss the mad rush to the airports.

I'm skeptical to the departure to Tokyo. Should I? Young and dangerous. Live fast, die young, that's always the way right?

I don't know why am I thinking about this all of a sudden. Wasn't it the plan to escape as soon as possible. All of a sudden, I'm pondering about practical things. Hahaha, of all people and of all things. I started to think, if I'm to escape to France instead, or back to London. Dreamspot, Barcelona. Ahhh. And what's with all the revelation to my escape spots. I meant to disappear.

How to disappear completely?

I want to go back to Tokyo to fill those gaps that I've missed. And to be alone again. I mean with the language barrier, it's not that difficult, and it's more thorough. Maybe I'm still stuck in the comfort zone. I'm comfortable there. At the very least, I won't get very lost. Should I surprise my parents?

Ahh.

What were you thinking of when you ran away?

2010-02-08T18:05:00.002+08:00

Feeling a tad emotional today after a pretty good read. It felt very real because there was no ideals. We are just so weak. It's true, there is such as a thing called impossible.

What do we make out of fate? It's purely logical and reasonable? If that didn't happen, this wouldn't happen. As much negative connotations I can relate to fate, there is this fleeting positive moment attached to it. Almost ephemeral.

What about regrets? Where do I stand for this particular emotion. As much as I loathe it, sometimes it's just inevitable. Let's just go through with it. It's a scary thought, scarier than death itself. Can I be brave enough to take regrets in its stride? Haha. I almost think if I'm brave enough, I wouldn't regret. Oh useless human beings.

2010-02-06T01:33:00.002+08:00

Waiting for those few words to come round. Waiting for you to ask how are you today.

Waiting for you to ask if these tears were dropped for me.

Nah but I don't cry. It's a pity.

Final savior? Like a friend mentioned. I'm flattered.

But give me a chance today, to take a break from all these chaos.

2010-01-20T01:55:00.002+08:00

terrible.

haven't felt so affected for a while. everything feels so heavy you get it that you're too upset for tears. not just totally pointless, you can't even tear for the sake and symbolism of tearing.

you wish you can really walk away. will be great if i can add "fuck this, fuck it" to conclude.

but you know you can't.

good to know isn't it? i still have some feelings over some stuff, i'm not heartless. haha yeah good to know. i can almost hear my heart beat, not in the excited manner. more like i wish it can stop for a while. not trying to end lives, no never, but to let me escape for a moment. ah fleeting moment, what a romantic thought.

do i have too much pride to just move on?

let's not talk more.

today i felt useless. fuck, i hate waiting for traffic lights. fuck these lights and out of stock items.

2009-11-22T10:57:00.002+08:00

Nippon doesn't feel so far. 与論と沖縄は行きたい! Gonna go with Maika Akiyo Rika! YEY! Graduation trip part 1. Remember Miss Meiji Empress told me. Oh or is it at Asakusa. Something along the line, the person I have been waiting for will definitely turn up. Okay I'm just being too hopeful but anyhow, I was talking to Maika in the morning. I suddenly feel hopeful about working in Japan.

Oh young horse travels.

I am addicted to bandage.

きっと何年も経ってもさ　
変われないものがある

Excited to throw away some things. It's nice isn't it? To not care about certain things. A given opportunity to anew. Well sure I can mope about things I can't bear to put it down. But nah, it's good to make changes. It's good to be on an adventure.

新しいものを探して　
片っ端から錆びれる

I have this urge to run away. Not escape, there's nothing much to escape from. More like time to bid farewell. Run off when you're having fun before memories turn bitter.

lands ~ bandage

2009-11-01T09:23:00.002+08:00

Hello.

Been a very busy bee. Kinda.

You get scared, when your dream cells are overly active. For the past weeks, I have travelled to Kyoto, Tokyo, New York, Thailand and almost London in my dreams. I have met too many people. I feel sleep deprived.

Dad has been more excited about fashion shows than I am. He has been buying CDs of fashion gigs and throwing them on my table. Almost appalled.

I have a big orh cheh on my tigh, what happened?

Oh and really thank you for those who helped out in my projects these days. Even the ones that intended to. It has been the most labour-intensive year ever.

Pi has been looking very good these days. Hahahaha. Would be nice if I could make it to Yokohama in November. Ah. Though I'm kinda disturbed by wearing Chanel beanie in NY Tube. I wouldn't, would you? Pi would.

Looking at my bank account, I'm trying to figure out the semi good jio for winter. Do I wanna see snow in the city end of the year? Not a big fan of snow and I don't own pretty coats. Sigh, thinking. If only I'm paid a lil higher. Or how about a lot more higher?

I have been pondering about the idea of a muse these days too. Is that romantic or overly positive? Or the inability to work absolutely independently? I have never met my muse before, maybe not yet. Maybe I don't paint, is that okay? Will my real muse please step up?

Sleeping a lil more this week, that is good news.

2009-09-17T05:09:00.002+08:00

I should be doing up my fyp slides. Yes I am but oh mannnnn!

Let's just say I am semi-happy with my 5days holiday + 1 day procrastination.

I undo my regret for not sweeping Westwood in Tokyo, and so hello Westwood Hong Kong! And to further my enthusiasm, Julius is in Leeds now, very near the home of Vivienne Westwood! Julius please stay there longer! Okay I bought my red westwood x melissa to replace my torn pink melissa. Happy! It was 50% off! I was half-happy that I didn't see the Zahid ones there, I may bomb, again.

I bought a lot of undo-regret items in HK, so nothing super trendy and in tune. I bought the 2nd in line miumiu wallet I always wanted? First choice didn't have the colour I want. Sigh, it was on sale in Tokyo, regrets. But I still like this one very much! I bought that gay dress belt from Ralph Lauren that I thought was too ridiculous to blast almost 200 on, it was less than 100, congrats superme! There were a lot of madness sale but superme shan't bore anyone with her conquers. Red bean lao po bings are awesome. Red bean mooncakes are awesome. Red bean coconut desserts are awesome. Red beans are love.

I am now glad I didn't pick up the Marc Jacobs charms watch from duty-free because Kel showed me this! First that caught my eye was yoyogi? No surprise right? from the kid that is so in love with Miyake's twelve. But Ueno grows onto me so much, I have to get that and reject Yoyogi as the poor substitute. Aoyama is gorgeous too!!! Okie, I can't wait for Kel's trip to Tokyo next month!!!

Superme is semi-depressed with hair now. Sigh, seriously. I can't believe someone laughed so loudly and for such a long time at me in the lift, superme is frustrated, irritated and seriously semi-hurt. But she doesn't mean it, I shan't hold it against her, that much. Time of the week, easily irritated when your deadline's in hours and people have to laugh at the smallest things about you. I really want to say fuck off all of you, but I am still nice deep down.

kat-tun ~ jumpin' up (oh feel my enthusiasm for fyp.)

2009-09-04T22:42:00.003+08:00

Insonmiac. OMFG.

I felt like an addict. And my 1001 readings on unisex versus androgyny vs feminism vs war vs equality. I need sleep. I want to sleep too. I can actually but I can't.

Someone kidnap my tea and coffee, maybe sugar too when I'm desperate.

Or knock me out, it may be faster.

Will next Thursday come earlier? Hello Hong Kong. Pang ti tok moh. Yi gor gei dor lui. Gong hei fatt choi. Tou or. Haha, thanks to mengkit, bowei and xingzhi for expanding my cantonese vocabulary and a not very helpful munghongs.

I'm nervous I have to take the Japanese profiency test. Such things exists. wth.

On a lighter note, I drew hmm nothing today but I have illustrator cs4 now. Oh should just say illustrator per se, after a year's absence. D: Hello guys, I am back with wonder scanner and illustrator.

bye.

2009-08-18T13:20:00.002+08:00

文化的雪かき。

それわダンス、ダンス、ダンス。。。

イヤアアア。易いヒーコー好き。ははは、おかし。

Anyhow, I can't stand the invasion of ants on my table, I DON'T EVEN REALLY EAT IN THE ROOM. I wanted to stop at don't, but I realised I just had the ba zhang. BUT STILL! Can't stop thinking about Kelly. Haha, which means I can't stop thinking about FYP too.

Ah, wanted to have some smart talk but I realised I have to go deal with something. Sadness.

tokio hotel ~ monsoon

2009-08-12T14:19:00.002+08:00

春が来て　夏が来て　
秋冬と　めぐりめぐるよ

Not much of seasons here.

Summer, it's been a good treat. Maybe I can say I've experienced real summer this year.

Sometimes, I still hear your voice at the back of my head. But really, go away now. It's too weird, to remember something like voices. Haunting, in every sense.

Not feeling too well today. Ah but it's nothing serious. How serious am I turning up for class later? Sigh, not much too. Still skeptical about doing level two. I really hope it's nothing too tough, D:

Brainstorming for Japan Media Festival, kinda. Interested but we'll see.

To all those that fell sick recently, please take care. To yuka-chan who was irritated by the earthquake, please take care too. Haha. Sorry that turned out funny.

つれします。

kat-tun ~ she said...

2009-08-09T14:13:00.002+08:00

Home alone today. Feels weird. Don't really wanna head out as well.

Dad came back with wagyu today, but he's having a barbeque with friends. Yeahhh, apology accepted and I get to cook them for myself. Anyone wanna have yakiniku with me today? Hahaha. I was gonna make ramen too. Ah, still am. Hahaha.

It's weird, it's been a while since all four of us are at home at the same time. It actually felt like I haven't been home for a while. Ah and tuesday I'm moving back to campus again. Haha, I'll try to be home more often now. Ah maybe not this semester, sounds like quite a sucky semester. D: I always thought the yuuki scene was funny, it happens at home all the time. The moment of "you're back? why are you back?", and the next moment of putting down your insane burden of a bag. Putting down is being nice, it's usually dumping and proceed on with taking out your dirty laundry. Mum commented very casually that our apartment is indeed a hotel with free laundry services. Hahaha, no she didn't mean it like other mums in anger. She does it too, just not with backpacks. Mum and dad travel in style, in luggages me and my sis are not allowed to use. But well, sis has gotten out of the backpacking shiats too, she has her own cool luggage now. Sigh. She's heading to Greece soon. And mum is somewhere right now as well. I have lost track.

It's funny how each of us talk better over emails when we're overseas. Maybe it's the thought that I won't get scolded in the face, I managed to tell my mum that I was surfing and had quite a bad fall but it was all good fun or I was cycling late at night alone and gotten lost. Oh terribles. Maybe I kinda miss travelling as a family, like all four of us. Oh man, it's been a long time, a long long long time...

I would like to visit Cambodia and Vietnam end of the year. I would like to get my diving license end of the year. Sounds like a lot of money.

Been thinking about thinking.

I am thinking if I am addicted to being alone for too long now. Now now, I can't bear for school to start. The thought makes my stomach churn, or is it that I'm hungry. Haha. Cheers.

2009-07-21T19:40:00.003+08:00

Been thinking about work all the time for a while now. Am I secretly a workaholic? Actually I'm quite an open workaholic. Ah but it bugs me a lot because I've failed a couple of times these few months. A lot of guilt, so, I am sorry, for those involved. Hahaha.

For those who have travelled and returned home, welcome back! For those who are still somewhere abroad, take care, influenza still at large. I am such a caring friend suddenly. So buy me some presents?

I found myself typing a serious chunk of serious things. HAHAHA, it was semi-scary and semi-amusing. I re-read it at found it tooo hmm serious. Let's feel lighter kids, feel lighter. How's holidays for everyone? And job hunting, if not jobs? Today I took a few steps outside my place, just running errands nothing much. For a while I thought, ah, what a nice summer. Is that what everyone thinks too? And if you think summer is over, no, not yet.

Superme feels that there are a lot of things to be done. Can the world not end in 2012?

Turn yourself around, you are not invitedddd! Haha I think that's the lyrics, I'm not so sure!

To those people who use the word alcoholic casually, please think twice? Alcoholism is a real issue and addiction. Oh sounding so serious. But anyhow, drink moderately my friends. Another resolution for the year, I will be cutting down on drinking. The need to feel a lil healthier. For a start, no more beer. Thank you. Wine parties are still welcome for now. Ah, I'm looking forward for a picnic before school starts. Tell me if you're interested yes? Yes summer dresses, baskets, bowls of salads and bottles of wine. Ah summer is good once again. Haha.

rooney ~ i'm shakin'

2009-07-15T05:18:00.002+08:00

I am so troubled over FYP. No doubt the topic is fun and of much love but there's so much to think about and think through. It's on Androgyny anyway. How can design a piece out of this? Interesting, yes definitely! Oh and this word, definite. I have pondered about this so much today as well.

Okay before I forget, I have to do this sidetrack. Buzzer Beat is out! Yay yay! To all those that missed Pi's drunk voice, WATCH IT! Hahaha. Yes, done with fangirling and let's move on to smarter topics.

Friends of superme. Do check out my FYP blog over here. Please talk to me about androgyny over there. Any views, comments, arguments, objections, suggestion, smart talk and anything at all are all very much welcome! As of now, I am looking into areas of fashion, music and theatre. Shine more light on me, tell me something interesting, boring details can be amusing too. All in all, amidst this blatant advertisement of my other humble blog, HELP ME WITH MY RESEARCH!

I have pondered on definition, Glam Rock, Agyness Deyn, Kamenashi Kazuya, Kabuki, David Bowie and other smaller details today. Why is androgyny so fashion-centered, is it just me overlooking or is it the general impression of the term? But I did make a conclusion today, androgyny is physical. Please object and talk to me about this. What do you think?

I thought of another question, I should post this up of beat space freshness instead, but anyhow, Androgyny and Vanity, how do they relate? If I am to throw in some words into the ball park, it would be fashion, characteristics, instinct, physical, image, self-portrait.

It's weird huh? Having so many online journals, I feel like a superschizo.

A note on my life today. I met up with Jianlun and Kenji today, our second attempt with Popeyes. Being the usual sway jiao, guess what, Kenji made Popeye ran out of biscuit and potato. What is Popeye without these?? And we were saying if Huan Long was with us, they would probably run out of coke and chicken too.

I was looking for this particular fashion spread of Kamenashi today. It took me two days. And I'm right, I had been imagining the best, when I did find it, it was all-so-average. I hate this habit of not saving what I find interesting as I surf. I only remembered the spread as happy lighting, very Popeye, Hanako, Ginza. Okay not so Ginza because the styling is not as extravagant and say lavishly-street. Turned out, it was An-an. Sigh. It was not as An-an as the other celebrities were shot, so yeah wrong guess. Sometimes I do feel like I've known Japanese fashion magazines enough to work for them, but days like these prove me wrong. With so much research into fashion these days, I wish I can be a stylist for magazine. It has always been one of the checkbox of my ideal jobs list, but it has gotten so much stronger these days. Something very street will be awesome, I do not dig the attas-ness of Vogue and Harper's. Don't get me wrong, I love these fashion still, but to be on the streets is just so much more interesting, it's so now and raw and real. I can talk about this the whole day.

2009-07-04T15:29:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday, happy bathday.

twenty-two rounds around the sun!

Thanks for all the wishes, the presents, the dinners, the cakes. I would almost say it's the best birthday! but don't we say that every year, so pretty much, you get my drift.

Hmm birthday speech and birthday notes. Thanks for remembering really, though I myself isn't huge on birthdays. Probably from the parties I used to throw. You just can't keep throwing parties. And I don't see much of a point for birthdays, is it self-indulgence? To assure yourself that your life can be celebrated and you actually have friends? If it's truly about a celebration of a certain being, people celebrate that not yourself right? I don't see the need to be absolutely psyched about this day. Hahaha, I mean okay I am happy, to go through another year of adventures and mark another year of growing up, but we can do that any other day right? So is this day just an excuse?

Well if you really need to hear this from me, my year from last July till this July. Every birthday the government decides to give me money since I turned legal. Oh a note on birthdays, turning legal means a lot, it's the only birthday I will acknowledge. You can't understand the immense amount of difference it makes. These two years, I grew up a lot, a hell lot faster. I feel like I have never used so much of my brains before. I must say I am glad OC and SP never happened for me. It must be the best thing that happened for the year. To finally move on from these projects, to bigger ones. I am glad I have thrown myself into design much more than anything. And I am slowly convinced that design can bring you to many places. I am glad it brought me to London and Tokyo within months. The two design hubs that I have been wanting to experience since forever. On a smaller note, London was the first capital that I learnt from childhood years. 一番場所を見たい。I am grateful for all the people I have met the year. And to be thrown out there like that, I may curse and swear, but I am still pretty happy. Oh, DoS. Semi like that.

Ah but really, though I am still cynical about birthdays, thank you for all the birthday treats. To me, it was pretty much an excuse to meet my friends. To you guys, I win and you have to meet me. Haha, so thank you birthday for that. So really, I just wanna meet you guys. Please date me out again soon, something more casual please. But wendy we can keep doing that, just that the next time, let's do some Hakkai-san. Whee.

And today's SBFF's birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CASS! Not much of a surprise of what present I'll be getting you, but stay excited. Hahaha.

2009-06-29T14:44:00.002+08:00

Hello dearest life winners!

I have sleeping problems. Can anyone die from insonmia? Oh dejavu, I've talked about this before. But no, I'm not gonna prove it. I meant prove talking about it once. And prove that I can die from it? At least I won't do it deliberately?

Alrights, so I had plans to pack my room of madness today? My toys are all over the place because of my huge window and massive win. Sorry guys! The reindeer is on the edge of my tin can, pi-girl has 4 postcards on her, tinrobot is hugging baseball matches. Gees, the relationships I have in my room. Mum asked me that the insane amount of turtles I have, when am I getting a real turtle. Hmmm insane amount? I don't think I have more turtles than robots. I don't think I have more turtles than tin boxes. I need more boxes. I need a trip down to salvation army. Oh and on real turtles, I stopped keeping them quite a couple of years back. Ahh the good old days of Mister Turtle Chin who crawled into my house one fine day. I wished I kept that section of my journal somewhere. It was on opendiary.com in secondary two I think. HAHAHA. Yes, turtle chin was the last, I couldn't bear parting with anymore turtles when they grow too big. But turtle chin had such strange tales. So did terrapin chin, well there were two, I think they were just terrapin 1 and terrapin 2. I can't remember what was the name of my very first pet tortoise though, maybe something along the line of Tortoise Chin or something. Yeah why did I even mention this? I was rolling my wooden turtle around. Ah I should show everyone this cute tiny toy soon. 小さな〜

I looked at my room at realised my massive collection of some things. I didn't mean that to be vague. I meant as some stuff, I just have so many of it. I have a lot of hats, a lot of clothes that look the same, a lot of jeans, a lot of tin boxes, a lot of star wars toys pinned up on the wall, a lot of cosmetics I may never ever finish using, a lot of CDs, a lot of magazines. Ah overall I think my room sounds bimbotic. I've moved back from hall with everything, which means I have a lot of pillows on my supersingle bed too, and two quilts. Gees, can I have more things? Oh I have a lot of post-its too.

This is just sleeping-problem-ranting.

I've spent hours procrastinating about how I should start watercolor doodling again to include in my next project. HAHAHA, and no I have no idea where my brushes and paint are. It was just good fun procrastinating and finishing up hmmm absolutely nothing at all.

I had big thoughts on big things lately, it got me semi-depressed thinking about it. But I can't turn them into smart talk. So good day to all!

kat-tun ~ 喜びの歌

2009-06-28T17:14:00.003+08:00

Good-morrow fellow countrymen!

Sleeping problems over nothing. Okay over a lot of insignificant things that proved to be pretty significant. Staring at the immense amount of random toys I have on my table, all these faces looking back at me. Oh nothing creepy, they're cute. Guitarman from the Knock Knock Family, absolutely kawaii. Wooden ball-shell on a rolling turtle, absolutely kawaii.

What do you wanna be when you grow up? How about a laksa seller in Tokyo. I say at Akihabara and then into Shibuya and Roppongi. Or a kueh tu tu seller in London. From Ravenscourt to Camden to Soho. Oh life winners. You know I can't stop talking about Freshness Burger. The only thing that keep nagging at the back of my head these days, is the taste of these happy burgers. Fluffy, buttery, Japanese-trying-to-be-American, and yes-so-happy. Ah never mind the insanely miniature size of it. It is worth the bites. Say three bites.

Oh to correct someone, can't remember who said what. Malboro Black One is 1mg of tar, it is less than Singapore. To the person, you made a mistake, Singapore has less than 1mg in nicotine content, not tar. It's 9mg of tar right here. Oh yes you delusional smokers, smoke your malboro black one to feel healthier!

Sigh a Pi will make me a very happy person these days. Or give me a pair of Kame-choice jeans, I can be happy for a week too. I realised it's too hot in Singapore to keep wearing jeans out. So much for the hype of getting 2398 pairs of jeans. I haven't even wore the Yamane Evisu out. Sigh. I am hoping for a change in collection when I see Edwin jeans again. I like their choice of Japanese denim. It's not soft like Lee, I love Lee Japan too by the way, but it has this awesome hard edge to it that makes them so stiffly-attitude. Oh yeah and you can customize studded "happy birthday" on the pockets. HOW NICE! (It was an example given on the pamplet.) Why can't I stop raving about jeans? I don't even look that awesome in jeans. Oh but I wish I can. I wish I am the best jeanist too...

On that, Mr Best Jeanist is my ideal/role model for my androgyny project. If all twelve of my models look or feel like him, I can die in 2012. Ah okay, stop whining.

Is my iTunes playing Takki!? How retro.

And fangirling slightly. Pi and Koki are musically-bonded buddies. They write for each other, cute.

And on another note, need to lose weight. Weight issues. Inner bimbo is coming out again. But still.

kat-tun ~ love or like

2009-06-17T17:04:00.000+08:00

Hardly packed my room but I did figure out that I want a dressing table. I don't have a big mirror in my room as well which came to be a huge surprise to quite a number of my friends. And I noticed my make-up bags, yes bags, are exploding. I've unpacked most of the toys but my boxes never fail to surprise me with more lil things.

Proud ownership for the round of tokyo shopping spree goes:
. Evisu France Yamane Series
. Evisu Donna Blue Gull
. Lee Japan Riders
. Dior Black dress
. Comme Des Garcons Play White Shirt
. Comme Des Garcons Play Tees
. Comme Ca Ism Summer Jacket
. H&M Black dress
. Buiby Cap
. Dick Bruno's Zou-san and Kame-san!
. MoMa Knock knock family Guitar Man
. Design Festa Tooth Toy

The rest I'm proud too, but I haven't exactly unpacked, not too sure what others are there. HAHAHA. A lot of hats, a lot of socks and leggings, a lot of make up, a lot of random food, a lot of toy robots, a lot of matches, quite a few number of books. Oh totally no bags bought, almost tempted by Vivienne Westwood, but I walked out with no bags in my hands proudly. Safe. I looked at the bag thrice, almost an hour in total, but it's just too bimbotic. I almost felt too possessed when I wanted to bring Neil Barrett's standard length awesomely cut black blazer to the cashier. But I figured, why do I need that many blazers seriously. I always felt obliged to have a black blazer in my collection but some thoughts will always pop up in my mind, "I just don't understand black". OHHHHH. I almost bought LV's new patent glossy pink wallet! But I figured, how many shiny pink wallets do I need? I want Issey Miyake's TWELVE watch too, I kept bumping into it! But dearest Wendy loves that watch too, so she can have it. :D

Sam is right, Tokyo is a dangerous place for girls. And winnmills.

I am very in love with Comme Des Garcons. I really wish I could bring that turtle jacket back. I would wear it really, butbutbutbut, sigh. Okay I'm quite happy that I didn't sweep a few shops that I thought I would because the summer collection was just too hideous. Good for the wallet, so yes yes!

Oh I was reading somewhere that Koki dates Maria Ozawa? Kame dated Aoi Sora? Wow, no thanks to Alvin Loh I know these pornstars. Hmmm my boys have exotic tastes.

2009-06-15T08:47:00.003+08:00

Okay this is so hilarious. I'm at Narita once again, cos superme has cleverly miss the flight yesterday. Oh my sugars.

I shan't add in the part I was drunk. But I did wake up on time and all but was pondering on the densha, how would my parents react if they see me in that state. Semi-glad I missed the flight. And there I was at the cafe table looking at our drunk purikura, "Last Nite (yes it was spelled nite) in Tokyo", "Last drink in Tokyo". And I headed back to Shibuya to meet Satomi and Shizuka. Met another two of their friends, one who took a long train ride with me later on but I really couldn't remember their names because I was just so in need of sleep. Oh and nice, the many Ss. So funny, but I was too tired to laugh out loud. And well, there was no alcohol, not a tinge, the real final night I was in Japan. Unless, suddenly the storm just decides to attack Narita, I may just have to spend yet another night at Shibuya. I think I have spent enough time at Shibuya/Harajuku/Aoyama for the year. If I hear the train lady's voice again, I may just puke. Oh no no, my work place is Omote...Sando. Next stop, Omot-te-San-do. Oh yeah, that's how she speaks in my mind. And it's Shi-bu(ot)-yaaa. Amused with train voices AND STATION SOUNDS. Fake birds, weird jingles, funny station masters voices. Japanese never fails to surprise.

Me and Sam(yet another S) were discussing how much time we spent in Tokyo drunk. Getting into the culture too much. I mean, they're even more drunk than us, can't help but not feel guilty. Same goes as shopping. They are carrying like ten times more bags than I am, I shouldn't be guilty. OH MY GOSH. Japan is a sinful, sinful land. I'm still imagining how my parents will scream at me when the statement comes in this month. OH MY GOSH.

I was gonna say what I was pleased with this trip, superficially, but I may scare a lot of weak shoppers. I am glad I insisted on carrying the soft luggage, it was a close shave of 34.5kg. So sorry I didn't bring any Sake back, BECAUSE WE DECIDED TO FINISH THEM, and I'm glad I did, or it would be like a 300kg. I should ground myself when I reached home. I took a lot of pictures of big big Aiba for you Wendy! Cos it's his endorsement all over town now!!! Anyway I feel so paiseh snapping those pictures, wah laos, machiam I still 14. And no I didn't step into the shop. I may kill myself just at the doorstep. But my birthday I want the big big Pi poster can? Hoshii, hoshii! Not like I'll really hang it up please but I'm just too depressed that I didn't get a chance to kidnap Pi home.

Oh ya I am very disturbed with Japanese's English standards at clubs and maybe concerts too. I feel weird when they say put your hands up in your air or that sorta stuff right. The usual thing is to do as you say right? Or at least a significant number of people would, BUT NOBODY DID. Then I felt so weird when I raised my hands, like aye? no meh? Hmmm okay lor, rebellious and defiant, I meant them.

Okay la I wanna go washroom, shall end this useless rambling and refine it into smarter talk when I'm not so in need of sleep.

2009-06-09T06:11:00.002+08:00

Thank you for smoking.

I don't know why but this topic just keeps popping up these days. So why do we smoke? Do you smoke? Do the people around you smoke? How about the people of your age, do most of them smoke? The constant debate about why we smoke and how bad it is for our health. Well of course by now, the age of almost 22, I know the consequences, the harms, the cons, the sick side, whatever you wanna call it.

But that aside, I don't have a definite reason to why I smoke. The cool part is over, I mean I'm not exactly seeking for an image here. To kill time while waiting for the bus? Yes. I don't and can't do that in Singapore. I often find myself clearing too many in a day abroad. It is working, this Singapore policy thing. Which brings me to another thought, why? It is not even that much embedded in our culture to smoke. I get the no smoking on streets in New York and in Tokyo because they friggin smoke a lot. There isn't that much to ban in Singapore, I just don't get. It makes the streets look so fake, like a plastic town. I'm not saying smokers make your streets cool but it makes your streets real, don't you think? I guess this is just a very superficial analysis made by myself.

This fake plastic town thing is getting on my nerves by the years. Why should youths be pressured by the fake plastics that smoking is "illegal"? Should they or can they even have some sort of voice in making a choice. Well, the obvious answer is no. But ah heck, you can still manage a pack when you turn 18. Well, in no ways I'm trying to encourage this vice, I have not spoke much about this before till recently I guess, just some random thoughts while I'm waiting for 9 to arrive.

I love Tokyo very much, feels good to be back.

Oh why did I suddenly type this was not because of recent conversations. Okay slightly related. Talking to Laura about why non-Japanese kids make such a hugeeeeee huge mega huge fuss about their Japanese idols smoking. I mean everyone smoke here right? And how they insist "OH NO THAT CAN'T BE TRUE!", is so hilarious? On that, there was this attached link that she sent me about the continual huge fuss they made, I really wanna laugh out loud but I can't, where I am now, so I can only smirk and type. And yeah type HAHA. Do you really need prove that they smoke? Seriously, they're not my dads neither will they be my best friends, I don't exactly care for their health.

And yes, Japanese smokes. Period. Get over it.

Case closed for that. I am disturbed by a few comments made by my friends about me these days.

"Don't give me that smirk."

"You're much more bimbotic than you look."

Do I do that a lot? I mean these comments come in variations. Sigh, wends say it's not about changing my image, it's changing me. HAHAHA, oh so profound. Do I subconsciously smirk a lot? Anyway that's not a very bimbotic gesture. Ah I don't have much to say on that. Too much words will reveal too much of my true bimbotic self.

And to the other Laura, I'm still gonna buy my bimbotic bag.

2009-05-17T17:42:00.003+08:00

In the land of the rising sun. I'm trying to recuperate as much as I can today. Just staying in and lazing out. It's funny everything I log on to now, is in nihongo, help.

It's been great. Winnie's been a really nice host, it's nice to begin with for letting us crowd in her one-person apartment. Thank you really. I feel bad wasting space in her tiny place. Haha. Maybe I should treat her to dinner later. Miaos.

Often asked if I plan to stay on in Japan. I really don't know, I want to, at least for a year or so and see where it brings me next. But it's really the language barrier. I mean to get with the flow with the culture, it's not that hard, I've been learning since a while back. Well it kinda helps too when Japanese think that you are a Japanese, just that when they keep sprouting Japanese in your face, you can only smile and nod.

Let's do a quick summary shall we?

Kyoto is really a beautiful town. Maybe a lil too beautiful? In a commercialized manner? Yeah, it's a town made for tourists, I hate the fact that the temples aren't even that functional. But well, it was not like I was gonna stay there for years, I am a days-tourist too myself, I'm glad I visited a number of the UNESCO sites. Shrines and temples are really beautiful there, though it sucks that every temple required an entrance fee, see what I mean about tourist town? And no, your student pass does not work at all. But yes, it's definitely a must-go, once in your lifetime. Gion is charming, really charming.

Next stop was Osaka. Isn't that big a difference from Tokyo. Shopping isn't that great, there isn't that much too see as well. It was great to see Dontoburi and that was pretty it for me. I'm too captivated by city lights, other things do not entice me as much. But food is definitely awesome. I don't have that much to say about Osaka, I don't think I have seen a lot there as well.

When I reached Tokyo and spent quiet days alone in Tokyo, I finally understood why I have always wanted to live here and why many others always wanted to live here. It really is a metropolis that has this aura that you can't compare to elsewhere. Each of the metropolis around the world has a different flavor on their own definitely, but clearly I am just speaking of Tokyo right now. The scene here is vibrant, the crowd is exciting. Unlike London which I saw recently as well, people are just too gloomy for their own good. Yes, they know how to have fun too but it is just not the same. I love neon lights so much, I love billboards so much. I am almost feel so touched each time I see the Shibuya crossing. It is definitely awesome.

Oh ya, I met Ninomiya from Arashi, how cool. HAHA! And the people I've met are funny, weird. I love all these encounters be it in Bangkok, London, Wales, Shanghai, wherever. It is slowly becoming a habit isn't it? Talking to strangers, finding out about their lives, taking the excuse of being a foreigner and wanting to know more. But this round, I really wish I spoke the language. I mean when I was in Phuket and Bangkok, I did not really meet-meet people, I didn't feel it as bad and they spoke more English than the Japanese but yeah, I feel it this time round quite badly.

Anyway, embarking on the 2nd half of the trip soon. Will be back to talk about it soon.

2009-04-28T19:15:00.002+08:00

More than twenty times I thought of deleting this blog because I want to just have one!? Haha, I mean I have to upkeep my designer blog which I am always procrastinating because it just involves so much of image uploading and smart talking. HAHA. Well alas, in conclusion, ultimately, I decided it was quite a pity to leave this page. Although the picture is long gone and I have no idea what I backed it up and where I saved it or whatever. It's almost a 700-entries blog, I'm slightly amused.

Well, do check out my other blogs if you're not used to me whining about my real life. Seriously, who am I talking to? Haha.

Anyway I'm really quite excited to go nippon. Recently made a fangirl of Nobunaga, I will read up more on him before heading to Gifu. I really want to watch the Kabuki play or I'm not that sure if it's kabuki, anyhow, theatre plays of Nobunaga and Ranmaru. The tragic ending of seppuku. I know it's rude, you know, to comment that I'm sure Ranmaru was actually his young lover but yeah I will still be rude and be convinced. 蘭, to begin with is orchid, ne? Anyhow, I am not that keen on his accused-homosexual lifestyle but Japan history is pretty cool and awesome to read on.

I'm excited for the parts where I would be travelling alone. I badly need to plan the flow from Gifu to Aichi to Kyoto to Osaka to Fukuoka to Nara to Yokohama and back in Tokyo. Where does Nara go actually???? わかんないよ！ I just discovered Takayama, I may wanna go there too. Let's plan this trip to be about Oda Nobunaga. Hahaha. メチャ最高！

On repaying wendy's kindness.

山ぴわ知っている？　はいはい！山ぴわ知っています！ギザかっこいね！山ぴ大好き。

Yes, that was a fangirling moment just to remember the 知っています　family. 知らない！知りません！

KAT-TUN ~ 春夏秋冬

2009-04-21T22:56:00.002+08:00

Been a while.

Much has happened. Semester is ending.

London has been great. Cardiff has been fulfilling. All in all, I'm very thankful for the opportunity. Opened some pretty awesome doors, so once again I'm thankful. And Stonehenge has been checked on the before-death checklist.

School has been pretty unlucky. Not sure why with all the open briefs this semester, I am still underperforming. Produced nothing much I can be proud of. Maybe the concept for Asphalt but yeah that's about it. I pretty much like Superlative too but it's still in production.

Work hasn't been bringing in amazing money but I shan't complain but work has brought me to nice places this year. Can't wait for Nippon, in 2 weeks or so. Ah, yamapi land. *beams* That aside, the 101 design stuff that I'll be heading for. Can't wait to meet the random designers I got in touch with. And I'm crossing my fingers once again for internship in agencies. It's quite a late decision I know but alas, long live advertising. Can't get out of it, can't I? Ah, but I'm slowly learning to love it. Yeah, we'll see whatever I get. I still think I'm expecting too much these days, can't help it. Gonna be pretty tough from now on.

Bite.

Another resolution of the year. Time to sleep and play a lil lesser for the greater good. HAHA! Yeah, coping with some inner fears, or so I may say. WORD?

Till then.

kat-tun ~ moon (yes i am still listening to them, and it's the new album)

2009-03-01T17:29:00.002+08:00

Been a month.

Lately a lot of crazy thoughts. It's a sort of unbalance in my world now. A lot of contradictions, insanity, oxymorons, whatever you want to throw into the mess. Not saying I'm depressed though, it's just getting cumbersome to handle the mess. Had a lot of things running through my head. Well I pretty much seek the easy, easier way out all the time, beer please.

Zeronine looks like a good year for growing up. It kicked off with a lot of grown up philosophies and grown up ideas. Not too sure I'm ready to have my own conclusions on these thoughts though. You know it's been a while that I've been fighting logics with logics and doing things absolutely rationally. It's weird isn't it, superme was the one person that only acts on impulse, time bomb many mentioned to me. It's weird too, growing up from being a time bomb. I think we have reached an age that we know ourselves pretty well, so that's a yay right?

Anyhow what's my point here? Oh sidetrack, cos I just thought of something. PIIIIIII IS SO CUTE!! ZOMGZZZZZ!!! Countdown: One month to miles nearer to yamapi! HAH! HEH! KON!

Is this the symptom of being in 20s. You start to feel sick of your childish self, yet you kinda miss it, but you can't go back there. Oh my circus? It's weird huh, looking back, seeing the hyperinsaneactive me to a very solemn today. Ah it's true after all, all these aging things. But still, I'm in my star wars boxers.

2009-01-23T16:04:00.002+08:00

Ah got my new spectacles, and my cheque bounced. All in all, very lil money left in my bank account. Haha.

Aiights.

Thought of getting a new pet. I sound half-hearted do I? I'm not really, gees, people should get used to the way I speak. Always imagine my own place, and I'll run off to the pet shop or animal shelter and pick up a dog and a cat. Well ya, cos I can't just introduce a new dog to my cat family. And since it will be a while till I get my own place, maybe probably a place I can't bring the two kiddies along with me, I'll need a new start of family. Ah, kinda heartless isn't it? But cats are not the kind that will get used to a new place and well, long story, just accept it as when I get a new place, I'll start a new family. Beams.

Ah it's almost like fulfilling a childhood dream. I would really want a dachshund or one from the spitz family. But spitz seemed a lil too big. Siggggggh. Huskies are huge!!! I was looking at the Japanese Spitz, hmm looks expensive and hard to maintain. The smaller spitz are Indian Spitz and Pomeranian. Oh mannnn they're so cute. Then I'll get an American Short-tail. Get both all in white. But dark colored dachshunds seems cuter. Haha, we'll see when the time comes.

Anyhow back to the getting a pet now. Obviously I cannot get a dog or cat now. I'm running around too much, I have no idea if I should keep them home or in hall. But I miss having a pet. Yes I talk to myself or my pets a lot. Sigh, explains the depression recently. I need to talk to someone. Mao. I contemplated on getting a goldfish. Well most of my close friends know I have this imaginery goldfish named monkey, will be nice to bring it into reality. Ah or a kame! Hmmm I'll name my kame, zou. Hurrh. Kame = 亀 Zou = 像

whee.

2009-01-20T20:16:00.002+08:00

Lethargic.

In the right sense, I should be doing a lot of things, planning, executing, more planning and thinking. But well, not in the mood for any, which may cause regrets later especially in the wee hours of the insanely loud mornings of the next-days.

Trying to forget the present, and drift into another place. Oh what a wonderful escape, my escapism.

Whenever I'm out these days, I have the urge to run back into my personal space. The need to be alone has never been so strong. Haha, it's nothing poignant and melancholic, it's really this desire to run into my own private zone and do whatever I want. Yes, even during mahjong sessions, I have this calling at the back of my head that says, "come back!!". Oh really weird. I feel possessed by my own space. Zomgs.

I have this lil aim for 2009 to be a year for new stuff, but we'll see what we can do. It's a good start with pretty creative ideas for now. Let's try to keep it this way. A new found love for folds and cutting. When can I be more interested in illustration, something that I really suck at and find no motivation to explore. Hahaha.

Been working hard on improving copywriting. No very hard, but been reading and flipping. Yeah, smarter ideas please.

By chance, had a slight interaction with the designers at regina, wow very nice people. Or am I too trusting. Hahaha, it's such a japanese way of talking and stuff. Peace. HAHAHA I almost laughed out loud in my own room. If I do end up with a job, I do need to treat these guys one round of drinks. ありがとうね!

Alright, just had this urge to scribble with no real content to fill.

Peace.

kat-tun ~ blue tuesday

2009-01-11T19:40:00.002+08:00

Should be doing some things that are definitely correct, or wouldn't matter if it's wrong. You know, to feel good. Hahaha. Whatever am I saying?

Sometimes you can't help but think the grass is always greener on the other side. You'll tend to think, ah if only I chose that instead of this, when this went wrong. That's how all of us are right? These days, yeah, I really keep thinking the grass is greener on that side. But hello, choices made by yours truly is always logical and sensible. I mean I really hardly make dumb choices, yes no? Ah it's pretty much just a phase I guess.

Anyhow...well there's not much of an anyhow.

I kept thinking of Jin saying "オートロ！！！” I don't know whyyy. It's just so funny!

この小さな街で、この時を生きで。

Yes yes despite weird girlish ramblings on this pages, I'm really working hard as a designer and surfing and reading normal designers' stuff. Hahaha, I just need some alternate spaces.

2009-01-10T19:25:00.003+08:00

I feel the need to start something new. I need a new project to work on. Well, there's always fyp.

To try to stop the procrastination, let's talk about school.

CI with jesvin. Was pretty cool, guess it's because it's something I really wanna learn about? Especially some very brief introduction done by Shaun during Dec. It's great that our first project is to work on the entry for D&AD, something that I would probably procrastinate too much and not send an entry, it's pretty costly to send in too anyhow. So I'm not so diligently doing some research now, I have many wiki windows opened though, and did take like 2 pictures on Link Points. And yes you guessed it, this year's theme is to work out a new concept and CI system for a loyalty program. I have some random ideas floating, yes time to learn to be organised, I have to do this systematically.

Web Design with Sven. Ayeees he's quite funny. It's a useful course! Something that I really suck at, now I'm actually learning something!!!! Hahaha. I'll be happy to even make a blog skin. Hahaha. At least I'll be a lil more prepared to learn flash website, next up...

Bioscience movie elective. Ah slack. 60% of the shows gonna be in discussion I've watched them. It's actually quite interesting? It's quite a geeky trivia class ya know, to point out ah that's FAKKEEEE, kinda things, so yeap I like it. It's better than TCM, and I PASSED! Hahahaha. And I have some rubbish class by the Kiasu creator for Profession Practice for Creatives. Okay I'm glad I can skip the class and get away with a B. We'll hang on for a while more, maybe the useful parts come later. Well I don't hate it, he's a funny guy.

Production Class, I missed it totally by mistake. So I have nothing to say. It's pretty paiseh, cos I meet my classmates in the next class, Graphic Design. Haven't gotten any brief cos Danne's sick. But it's some system exercise again. But I got an idea, I'm so in love with infographics lately I'm gonna do something with that. Can't wait to get the brief!

I've decided to crash Publication Designs! I'm so happy Danne said okay! We'll see what's the class about on monday!! Yay!

I've sent in my works for city scapers, martin/ong. Sigh, let's just cross fingers and pray for the best. I'll try my luck with Ogilvy Japan too, and wherever I chance upon next. Trying not to think too much about it. RAWR!

kat-tun ~ real face

2009-01-09T05:19:00.002+08:00

HELLO!! HAPPY 2009!!

Been a long time since I stopped and thought about things. I mean like brainless reviews like scribbling on a blog you know? I have been saying that it didn't feel like a new year. So after a week a so, let's review my 2008.

2008 had been quite a lousy year I guess. Usually you end up with woah, what a year. It was more like a dammit, finally. Only memorable part was the first exhibition I threw, MESH. That's 2008 right? It suddenly seemed so long ago.

Came holidays, I watched like over 20 dramas to kill time. It's one of the first holidays I didn't get to travel overseas because of hall activities, which really sucked. I thought I was gonna go Hokkaido for sure. Came and go OC, didn't love it, didn't suck either. Wasn't worth a year of effort that's all.

Oh back on the 20 odd dramas. It was when I discovered KAME AND JIN! HAHAHAHA! I've watched like so many dramas it felt like a fast forward of 8 years. And throw in some talk shows too. I've watched everything from america to uk to japan to hong kong to taiwan and back to japan. Maybe I should kinda thank monster hunt? I finally got down to watch the new kindaichi movie, which isn't that new anymore, where KAME took over as hajime.

Okay yes I know the previous paragraph was nothing very designerish.

Second semester didn't see any proud works. Well let's talk about firsts for 2008. I had my first cruise trip, first exhibition, first paid experience design, first internship I guess I meant to say first office designer experience, first label formed, first interactive installation displayed. Well I still didn't make it to cambodia, neither did I celebrate my birthday at tokyo tower. Oh ya 08 was when I turned 21, it was pretty much insignificant, for those who remembered, thank you. I kinda received like 5 presents? Hahaha of which one I returned. Cash from the kids, vader from the OG that I was never part of which is kinda a few close friends from blk b, diana and flowers from darren and secret. HAHAHA. Probably it didn't feel quite like a proper year because I hardly celebrated anything. Hardly any friends' birthday, my own birthday, not even valentine's or anniversaries, or maybe even a proper christmas and new year. It had been a tough year in school, and wasn't in any mood for parties and attention.

But I guess 2008 is still an important year for me, where everything settled to form and develop. I mean it kinda like I got to know myself much more and not that uncertain about things anymore. Past few years there were so many fresh things to try out and stuff, after a while you get used to things, and probably that fresh vibe, you tend to calm down a lot more. Well nonchalance kicks in again, you know how to handle things much better. And pretty much I know what I want now in a way more structured manner. Something that I'm very proud of since young, I've always knew what I want. Well it still stays, but these days you ponder how to get there.

In view of that, 2009 will be a continuation of working hard to get there. よろしくお願いします！

You know there's this phrase that's stuck in my head these days, 突然だけど好き！

Working on a few things now, if there's any resolutions at all for 2009, it will be better health (which is pretty tough), more proud works, lose some weight and for darren to be a happier person. Don't get it wrong, it's not like he's depressed, it will be great if he can be even happier. Haha. Oh not really a resolution but more like a wish, whatever I'm working on now, I really hope it pays off.

Aiights, nights! I'll think a lil more before writing next time. This is a mess.

2008-10-11T14:20:00.002+08:00

ZOMGWTFBBQSOZ!!!!

I don't know if I can say I hate school. Ah, if I have time to do things more leisurely, or maybe be a little more inspired. It's no fun getting stuck. Disappointed with graphic design, especially when I'm sorta blessed to have Cindy. I thought I should be at the very least excited about this project. BUT ZOMG!!! Anyhow, I'm beginning to appreciate contemp issues, is it a lil late? Picked up this book for my paper research, not that super useful for my paper but it's a great read Art and Politics by Walter A.Davis. It's somewhat a collection of essays/manifesto of psychoanalysis, ideology and theatre.

I kept thinking and drawing examples for Danne's last lecture on deconstruction. On the front I had a lot of useless comments as many had already heard. Okay so on the serious note, I've been thinking a lot on Derrida's point of staged circumstances. If he said it was not natural for that moment, because there are camera's and media surrounding him when the question was asked. But how about just the question was asked? The natural part would be he knows but to be asked, he had to construct and "stage" a reply and make known, should that be natural then? Drawing back to my paper on theatre and design, so is the concept of theatre a construction then? The very meaning of stage probably came from theatre itself. I mean, it's greatly associated. It is staged to present to another and others, and it is very well not reality but as a spectacle, we are exposed to it with no defense.

Ah, I wish I can study theatre. Spectacle, it's a great concept. How starcrazy or attention-lovers wanna be part of the stage and love the stage, I literally wanna make the stage. Haha, that's quite funny is it? Oh wells, time to work on my 101 assignments.

Can I say I really like interactive media too? But I'm just such an idiot at it, more of it at my IM blog WHICH I REALLY NEED HELP IN, supremesuperme.livejournal.com Yea, check out my humble project WHICH I AM SO GONNA GET SCREWED FOR, but I love it, so can I say that's all that matters? NO BECAUSE I AM STILL VERY NARROW AND PRAGMATIC, THE GRADE STILL COUNTS!!!

Anyhow, I've already caught Kurosagi on big screen WHICH IS RIDICULOUSLY HILARIOUS, not in a good way. It was so flawed and once again I cannot trust Japanese movies except for animation. I shall spare everyone from the details, but YAMAPI IS CUTE! Is it just me or peiling really looks like yamapi? Haha, and yea the first time I met peiling was in the dark room one nice saturday afternoon. That's how I knew her as the cabbage girl. I thought she looked strangely familiar. I have this habit of stocking up drama titles to be watched during holidays so I don't watch any during semester. And when the december hols came in year 2, and I was watching hmmmm was it Nobuta no Produce? ZOMG IT'S PEILING! And because I recently bumped into her on the 2nd level and the anxiety to watch Kurosagi reminded me of this. Yea, random, nothing important.

Okay, theatre theatre. Out~

2008-09-28T09:57:00.003+08:00

Suddenly I couldn't put up a brave front. Suddenly I just couldn't laugh or even vaguely smile.

But I think about it, nothing went wrong. Nothing is in the right place either. There was just nothing to be happy about and everything to be upset with.

Ah it's been a while since I've truly felt a rush of emotions. That's good in a funny way isn't it? I've read an interview once. On depression, it's not about an incident, but you just wake up feeling suddenly thinking that everything is gloomy and gray. Well being the optimistic one by nature, I believe tomorrow is a beautiful day, I will wake up to the glorious sun again.

Will all these ever stop?

When will I stop feeling for all those tangible things? The inner shrewd superme has put on that smirk, telling the other superme "am i right or am i right? it's all so expected". It's the syndrome of alienation, people come and go, nobody truly stays, even myself.

Oh on a lighter note, govt is giving me money to watch kylie in november. Thank you!

kylie minogue ~ everything i know

2008-09-11T20:29:00.002+08:00

You can't always get what you want, that's what Mick Jagger told me when I was 9.

Once again, what's the point all those plans and ambitions? Yup, I dream a lot, a lot of what I wanna do, what I plan to do. Sometimes I forget to just ponder with a pinch of salt, because sometimes you just can't always get what you want. Disappointment, something that don't cross my path often. Yup, something I work very hard towards. Ah, great disappointments all together in a month or so. But people grow up, I got over it in days. So yeah, what's the point of all these? Is there something to prove? Don't bother with the explanations and reasons, it's not aimed at you, I just don't think I need them. Haha, just let it be, Lennon told me that.

Ah, most people don't understand the objective of being nonchalance, its importance. Haha, am I stating that nonchalance is noble and an fine art of ignorance? Well, it's not that I don't wanna hear explanations, but I truly think it's not necessary. Right now, I've found another path so let's just carry on.

Haha well, maybe I'm just not meant for big things, bigger things. Mao. Oh all's happy now. Whee~

the rolling stones ~ you can't always get what you want

2008-08-28T13:37:00.003+08:00

Step between fantasy and what is real.

It's like drowning. You don't expect it, and don't know what to expect, cept it's not gonna be good. Does it help? To be mentally prepared that nothing good is coming out of it? As much as you think you look stupid, but you struggle, all for the survival. But I choose to let it be, just let me drown. But before you drown, you make up your mind to have a universal respond to all your problems. It's funny isn't it? One key to move everything around. I'm amazed by the human brain.

Amusement. I've been amused most of my life. Standing back secretly laughing at everything. Everything shouldn't be taken so seriously, you savvy? Too much playtime. Too much un-seriousness. Or maybe I don't like it this way at all. Maybe superme is not feeling well. A lil too hungry.

I'm supposed to be a dreamer, even my dad says so.

damien rice ~ eskimo

2008-08-14T18:30:00.002+08:00

Random boring.

A wonderful lethargic day today. Oh maybe not so much on the wonder. It's a denial to convince myself that today went on great. But it wasn't like it suck, SO ANYWAY, yeah my only 9 o'clock in the not so fantastic morning. I finally made myself read about the project research plan last night and was pretty dumbfounded. Gees, the research wasn't just wiki and own sketches. OKAY THAT KINDA SUCK. With less than 8 hours left and the strong desire to sleep, that wasn't very much possible. Blahblah, I smoked some rubbish out. I wasn't even thinking straight, I think I should just delete the presentation I did right away now before anybody sees it. Okay and turns out at class Cindy went through how we should do the research profile. Inside me was like, WTF!!?!?!?!?!??!! Didn't you put down on week to go through the user profiles? Ah, that sucks. That really did. But anyhow, I'm glad still, I won't be able to work with my materials for 9 weeks. Okay now it's a tie between herbal tea and cornflakes. I CHOOSE CORNFLAKES. They are such happy food. But we'll see how the research gooooooo~

Been thinking about rubbish. Argh, let me think the right way for a while. Nobody keeps revolving around alternatives.

Anyhow me and sidekick has been kickin for officially a year now, whee~

Oh the biennale artist assistant thing was great! Though I think I haven't been a great help because I'm such a klutz and just so messy! I'm sorry Ling Nah!!!! But thank you very much for the experience. I'm hyped up for biennale already!! Sidekick gotta return soon to accompany for it~~~ Wheee~

An unknown source of feeling high. Ooh apple juice.

kaiser chiefs ~ nanananana

2008-08-06T12:16:00.002+08:00

hello white page.

an injection of restlessness in this early hours of mild afternoon sunshine. a slight tremble of chill from the wind of the ceiling fan. procrastination? of course, yes as usual!

and so yes, we're back in school for the new semeseter. superme is rather hyped up, the thrill of working hard towards new found aims and new found goals. let's do a quick review of my two days in school.

first up with contemporary issues in graphic design. oh ya i'm spending my mondays with julie, how unfortunate. yes it's kinda dry but it's a thinking class, gotta attend class with perfect attention spans. for now, i still pretty much like it, talking about designs, debates on designs. it's pretty cool really. researching on something that your life revolve around, that's naise. maybe danne is not as amusing as astrid, but she's still pretty cool.

next up i had environmental design. oh yes! the class is fun!!! maybe because we had our lil group of the experience girls, it felt all familiar and fun again. we had this charette on window display for club21 and we just randomly came up with ideas and just a straightforward construction of the scale model. and as usual me and karen will stay by the side bitching about people's concepts and ideas. we don't have the best ideas definitely, but that doesn't eradicate the rights of talking about others'. Lala.

and finally i attended interactive media workshop. okay it was post xiaoming's birthday celebration at zouk. it was like alcohol still floating in my brain during the workshop. i had to keep myself up and stop stoning. hahaha. i commented at everything and laughed at wikipedia, like why? okay i'm glad i had alvin in class with me, I HAVE A FRIEND. i must say this workshop sounds pretty exciting, though it's not 100% what i'm expecting but definitely a very useful class still. i was so glad the workshop ended earlier, and i almost just ran back to my bed.

ooh exciting news, my type specimen book is on displayed at the library. whee~ okay nothing prestigious, just a lil happy still. yay! and i was so scared when i couldn't find my work at jesvin's. yay, everything's intact. cheers! and now we work hard on the window display competition. lalala~

drowsy.

2008-07-20T12:09:00.002+08:00

okay it's like discovering teevee for the first time. i need help. i can't stop watching shows.

anyhow, i know this drama is like almost ten years old, but i just finished it. summer snow. like come on man, ryoko hirosue is like married and divorced man, since those days. anyhow, WAH LAOS AYE! killed my sunday morning the show. it's like the happiest funny summer family drama, for like ten episodes. like awww they're such a funny family, blahblahblah, AND THE GUY JUST HAD TO DIE AT THE LAST EPISODE. qi si wo le, qi si wo le! nobody die at last episode one la!!!!!! i'm so upset now i can't stop eating gyoza. oh kidding. i need something to cheer me up. ooh? another show. lalala. i'm really watching another show. hahaha there's kame inside, the guy with the very nicely plucked eyebrow. i am so amazed.

anyhow these days waking up at my place on sunday mornings feel like japantown, singapore. there's always this cold sunshine, i dunno why, maybe it's the rainy season. you know those lazy morning sun? yea! and then there's like random japanese shoutings from the soccer field downstairs. today there's some random japanese kids shouting too. and brunch is greeted with happy gyoza and i just can't stop watching my japanese shows. hmm did albirex just move from lakeside to serangoon? hahahaha but my lil eye that was spying, those dudes don't look that young, but i can't see that well either.

anyway you know you're addicted to watching shows when u come back from clubs at 5am and really wanna finish another episode after the shower though you really can't concentrate much anymore. superme needs help. meanwhile, i have to go watch 1 pound of gospel man, there's like no time to waste. HAHAHAHA. yes yes, i love unrealistic boxing shows with boys skinnier than myself. life stinks.

nyjc ~ very loud clappings

2008-07-18T23:00:00.002+08:00

aloha!

craving for paddle pop, ever since the fateful day that kk return from 179 without it. kwa kwa, oh glorious pop. anyhow, been expanding the japanese menu. okay and i've figured out the best method to prepare gyoza, OH GLORIOUS GYOZA! tried out the apple honey curry the other day, can't really taste the apple. maybe i'll cut them in chunks instead of dicing and mixing them in. would be quite cool huh? to bite the apples? not for everyone i guess, but superme's a big fan of apples. life's must-haves, or the kitchen's must-haves, red beans and apples, in any form. would love to have them in every form, hahahaha. sometimes i wish i own a tokiwado grill to make my own red bean tokiwado. wonder if there's a way to cook red beans with apples. HAHAHA. oh red bean milk is amazing, kiddies out there should try it too. hmm maybe red bean apple soy milk will be amazing.

did find a new love for carrots lately. was triggered off went i was watching aiba's part of kodomo no obangohan. the carrot milk seemed pretty awesome. well, not like i've tried it out myself, but carrot juice is nice. so well, it stopped there till i was cooking curry recently? and just with potatoes and chicken seemed boring so superme went ahead to cut some carrots in. ohhh, carrots are so naise. but sidekick is a potatoman, so i guess i'll figure out some new potato dishes too. will be cute if superme buys more lil bowls and stuff. and so i wanna make that carrot juice soon too, yay!

was pretty much lazing around today and surfing, watching some shows, thinking about the hunt. so anyhow was trying to look at those supposedly kimura's descendants. kiddies like yamapi, akanishi jin, kame? hai, they're quite ugly what. not like pui-in-the-faces ugly, but not exactly kimura godlike either. while kaypohing about JE and stuff, came across a book translation of Johnny Kitagawa's jimusho. hmm johnny entertainment is strict with their artistes, no girlfriends allowed whatever, to an insane extent really. well, i'm as usual always amazed by japanese systems, even at the tyrannic levels. it was a case of media pressuring from JE and sexual harassment from mr johnny to his boys. it has always been rather known but never proven in black and white. while he's like over 70 now, i guess he probably stopped those activities, i sure hope, no breaking of bones please. but gees, say like 10 odd years 20 years ago? haha, oh dear mr kimura, that's not very naise. JE is like a mob in its own league. the dark side of entertainment. yes trials are still going on whatever. but can we imagine, or more like the japanese imagine a world without johnny entertainment. his insane system did bring immense joy to idol lovers, fan girls. what if JE falls? the system will be imbalanced. haha, seriously. it is a success story, despite the darker sides to it. don't think there were any pop groups or artistes bigger than four leaves (from the 70s i think) or say SMAP. well, let's just say he's good at what he's doing. and the boys did choose to be there, to a certain extent but his powers over the media is too crazy to think about.

oh well, thoughts of the dark always have this weird charm. haha. oh current interest of the kamen rider, he's not a johnny. good to know isn't it? hahaha

arashi ~ be with you (arashi's a johnny, mao)

2008-07-13T17:03:00.002+08:00

miao~

WHEN I SAY LUCKY, YOU SAY MAN! LUCKY! MAN! LUCKY! MAN! Oh yea~

Anyhow, my legs are tired, so I'm taking a break and tell you about my afternoon adventure yesterday. As we all know, superme is quite an acknowledge goldfish, which I still can't find any pros and advantages of it. So anyhow, because superme always forget to bring this and that from home to hall or the other way round, there's this standard routine of checking and ticking the checklist. Oh yes, Ong Chin Ming is quite amused with that, the checklists. And so I lived without my speckies for a week because I left them at home and I was very determined to remember to bring them home, so they made it to the top of my checklist for the weekend. Before superme left 05-06, while happily singing to arashi, it was checked 20383748 times that the speckies were in the bag. Yes, speckies, bag, bag, speckies, yes bag, not table, not cupboard, speckies, bag. And yay, time to go home! Okay why wasn't it speckies, face, face speckies? Cos the speckies are kinda cheapo plastic ones, they became a tad too big to wrap around superme's face, it's not a comfortable fit, superme tries not to wear speckies out. Say if superme falls, the speckies will fly and land somewhere before she does. After almost 2 hours, yay superme is in serangoon after buying some anpan as well. Anpan is one of superme's favourite food in the world. HURRRH! And those new coloured lens are kind thick and loses moisture easily. Yawns, time to change into speckies. AH, WHERE ARE THE SPECKIES!!?!?!?!?!??! It was a moment of SURPRISE!!!!! WHERE DID THEY GO!? Honestly, superme thought she still saw it when she reached out for the pen in the bag on the train. But they decided to walk out on her. Sigh.

It's a sign, time to get new speckies. Superme is resigned to wearing the old purple speckies. Good old brown speckies, I love you so.

Ohhh I thought of cute costume for monster hunt. That sounded quite wrong. BUT I AM SO EXCITED TO SEW. I wanted to dig out some old costumes I sew a long time ago, but I have no idea where dad kept them, it's embarrassing to ask too, so OH WELLS!

arashi ~ life goes on

2008-07-13T14:02:00.003+08:00

GLORIOUS FOOD!!!! Thank xiaohan for bringing us there! And the worldclass company!!!! Haha, grilled mushrooms never tasted better. And quail eggs, no quail eggs.

ooooh new toy! THANKS!!

me and a new vader!!

the girlies, xiaohan insisted. oh wells.

the =.= face

the couple and the mistress

wheeeeeeee nobody looks so shy one la, like first month together like that

xiaohan eats like a man. lalala~

2008-07-13T13:51:00.003+08:00

Hmm it's a headache to get the photos in order. BUT OH WELLS, I DON'T CARE! IT'S ALL FROM THE SAME EVENT! Anyhow happy birthday to bingbing and RS KUMARESH! But I kinda lost kums number, somebody wish him for me please!

me and mitch!

erin with the pile of doh-noodles!

the birthday girls!

group shot with the "boys and girls" person

check out the mini sundae, wheeowhee!

happy with her breakfast meal!

all together now doh-friends!!

2008-07-13T13:41:00.003+08:00

Okie, more overdue pictures for the sidekick's sake. Unless it's work, I'm really quite lazy to upload photos. But I'm quite happy seeing them. Whee~ For my friends who think I went missing too.

yaya with me and ong at the pitstop.

PICNIC ON THE AR MAT!

Ongongong is a superhero, long live AR mat

note that it is someone as the black, he's not just a shadow.

serene is such a cute ghost.

ooh my lil monsters.

on the lorrrrrry to geylang!

wheeeeee~

2008-07-12T19:05:00.004+08:00

Some random hostelites pictures to update the sidekick. Sidekick, there's some missing pictures, like the mitch ones, and minori ones, and green ugly toy, oh and the AR MAT! I'll try again later. Keep getting error.

the kiddies, waiting for changgg

the rest of the kiddiessss

all the kiddies together with mopo!

mopo and me cutting cake

noob ong, setting up the fire

yay, food! long live monster hunt.

2008-07-03T13:07:00.002+08:00

Oh it's a daytime thursday! Time to change sheets, been sewing too many things on the bed, feels funny. Kept kicking some threads off my legs when I sleep.

At the rate I'm watching Arashi, it seems that I see Aiba more than I see Darren. Hahaha. Can't blame his useless webcam. They have so many variety shows, it's like impossible to finish watching. Especially with my hardly fluent japanese, I watch really very slowly. Oh man, but they're really very funny. It's like so brainless sometimes. They're the ultimate timekillers these days. And I think I've completed whatever show Matsujun is on. Yawns. I consider Kindaichi done cos I used to watch it a lot on teevee despite loving Dohmoto more. Anyway, when you kiddies are free, try watching Mago Mago Arashi, IT'S SO FUNNY! Watch the AibaXwhoever's combi, those are spastic, cos Aiba really has no brains. Hahaha. Matsujun is not very nice to watch on variety shows, he tries so hard to be funny you just wanna punch him. Well, you kinda wanna punch him when he's acting too. Anyway I was reading a magazine a while ago saying Matsujun has a very strong face(!!!!???!?!?!?!). BUT WHY!? I take it as they're taking it to a national level, ala comparing to godlike Kimura? That's disgusting. Oh wells. Yes it's been almost ten years since I first wanted to punch his face.

Ya, teenage obsession with boybands aside. I'm trying to figure out a way to print out the clues for monster hunt. I forgot about our kok kok consumer printers, I won't be able to print double sided effectively. How should superme attack this problem lying in front of her? Should I just print on news print and tear the different parts out, saying it's a section/fragment(!?!) of the school newspaper? Seems better right...oh wells, we'll try.

Sigh, I'm still worried about my manly dummy. As long as the top half doesnt fall before the bottom half, I think I can just give a pat of my back and ong's. Oh man I couldn't stop laughing when we were making that weird thing. Await our masterpiece tomorrow. HAHAHA!

arashi ~ love so sweet

2008-07-01T14:05:00.002+08:00

Hola! Happy 21st! Thanks for all the loving! Thanks for the endless flow of tinboxes and vaders and buzzlightyears. I feel like five every birthday. Oh but I received pretty grown up presents this year too, so thank you very much.

Managed to meet quite a few people these days. After a lot of arashi talk, I met wendy, our yearly affair. HAHA. Thanks for the convenient very overdue present. HAHA! THANKS LA THANKS LA! You know I love you very much. And thanks for introducing AIBA MASAKI! Ya, talking about that, I'm listening to arashi and watching arashi shows and varieties lately, no thanks to that wendy ng. It's a guilty pleasure. BUT HER THAT AIBA MASAKI IS SUPER DUPER CUTE! OH MY GOSH! Please go listen to him, I'm still very stunnedo by his insanely high pitched voice.

Gees, saw something that I used to say I wanna do. Concert sets. Been watching quite a few concerts on dvd and online these days. It's just very amazing. Love the powerhouse Madonna, Kylie ones and the very flashy innovative Japanese ones. Pop groups and artistes are always pretty good in these areas. But I know L'Arc has very good ones too. Oh gorillaz had an amazing live set on Brit Awards a few years back I think. We'll see my own progress after next sem. Yea, really looking forward to interactive media and environment. We'll finally see it once and for all if it's my calling. Haha. It's kinda similar now that I see it, display sets, concert sets, exhibition, runways. It's just all graphic design in 4D. Well, I don't seemed that disorganised after all. Please let all these work out for me. Yeah, this is year is pretty good for work, so let's just hope.

And my grand plans are still in progress. So my remaining semesters are highly important. Now that I've found a rather fixed destination and brought about appropriate measures, hahaha, we'll see how it turns out now. Yea, I'm now 21 after all, it's when all the ambitions start pouring in no? Come on, I'm excited myself too! HAHA! COME ON! FIGHT-O!

aiba masaki ~ friendship (oh cute voice!)

2008-06-21T14:46:00.002+08:00

Insomnia strikes again. A great deal of sleeping problems. Oh before I begin, did blogger change its font? It's kinda nice isn't it? Kinda young and hmm small. Haha. There's this fear of sleeping, I really wonder why, which used to be exclusive during semesters. I should want to sleep more than usual, to skip days and hours so sidekick can hurry up come back. Anyhow when days I do feel like sleeping, the sidekick will be online and I don't really wanna miss the very little time we have online to hmm sleep. Oh such great luck with sleeping. I'm sway even when it comes to sleeping.

Had fun this week, pretty much. Work was decent. I guess I'm too messy to do such work for long. Haha and I am really quite bad with PC and excel!! I really feel quite bad for Rain, me and wirn's in-charge. We, more me than her, always mess up and she had to do so much cleaning up at the end of each day. Gees, and employing us were supposed to lighten her work job. Please still employ us the next time!

Been quite lucky with work these days. Managed to showcase our portfolios during work and Rabiah, one of the bosses, is very willing to hand us some cases. Seems like we are not getting the backdrop to do but some other stuff, namely Bloomberg. Oh, fun fun fun. And luck continues when I decided to meet some old SA friends. It was a lil crazy cos I don't really talk to them much even in SA but oh what the hell, just be friendly. It's was fun hanging out and heading to homeclub. Haven't been drinking for a long long time. Okay I'll go to the point. Met some friend's friend, here and there, blah, had supper and figured the way to share a cab back. And in the cab with me and ben were media people, which ends up with "send me your portfolio to my email". Yay, and so Ogilvy is outsourcing for freelancers here and there. Told me should have gone for an internship to learn. Oh wells, next summer. That made my day really, though I kinda wanted to slap myself when I got home. I blame the alcohol, I kept saying I'm talentless and inferior with my works and on and on. Sigh, should I be saying I'm the best designer or something, hahaha. Oh well, I'm nervous sending my lil portfolio over. And all for the money. They were asking how come I didn't wanna get an intern at yolk. I said something dumb again, it's the way I say it but it's true. I'm too paiseh to ask them. They saw me grow up, kinda. They know where I stand and everything and I'm really very very shy with my works. I don't quite like the idea though I know it's a great chance. Especially when one of their resident designer is my own sis. Hai, I can just imagine them fretting over me everyday, "IS SHE STUPID!?", "so ugly still dare to show us", etc. Haha, I prefer to work with strangers though they may think the same, but ah you wouldn't care.

Anyhow I had fun with the saints yesterday. We must do the dvd thing soon. Haha.

Miss the sidekick very much. Oh well, play more while I can then. Sigh.

2008-06-07T05:07:00.002+08:00

I can't keep my single roooooom!!?!?!??!?! Oh man this is fucked up. Being the absolutely lazy me, the number one reason is I FUCKING HAVE TO MOVE ALL MY THINGS OUT AGAIN!?!?!?!? True I don't have a lot of things, BUT STILL! Secondly, I'm a loner. I don't like company. Though I don't sleep nekkid, I can have that option open if I have A SINGLE ROOM. And come on, I have a world class view (fake hotel view) in my current room. And dammit, gotta shift my bed now that they are starting their annual cleaning. Argh.

Great that monster hunt is coming together. Great that we came out with a brand new team fortress. Must remember daims words, stop trying to revamp the used and tested formulae. Arggh must surpass junwen...mu-mu-must. Must find out what weilun did at water tank though. Hmmmm. Ooh we have brand new stations this year, everyone please look forward. Hahaha. Hmm the people power factor, that kinda suck. I know me and zhenming are already super lucky to get the same number of help as last year but well, we need more this year! We'll see how it goes la huh, strike off some here and there. And oh ya bad news my hei bai wu chang's hei is missing. Someone help me get someone please.

Will be doing shopping this weekend. Getting stuff for dawn's mermaid birthday dinner. Yes, gone the sophisticated party we are heading the towards tacky and tackiest. Need to get make up and scars and stuff for monmonmonmonster hunt. Okay actually for now only 2 segments of monster hunt I am totally satisfied. Comes the week, gotta work out the other 9 segments. Oh ya gotta get some paper for team fortress. Always thought the idea of team fortress is good but we can never pull it off. AND FINALLY, I have the chance to do it this year, yes la, success only please. Hopefully it's fun la. Hahahaha, haven't tried it, not sure if it's okay.

As much as I'm busy everyday. Hmm not quite actually but occupied still. Still a sense of emptiness without the sidekick. Don't exactly miss him, cos he's coming back after all and superme is busy with things. But it's just a weird feeling. Another holidays spent without him. Well, last holidays together anyhow. Not exactly complaining, but it's just quite a waste, never had a chance to take a break together without worrying about projects and projects and hundred more things to hand up the following week. Sigh, not the best feeling in the world.

Anyhow, tomorrow's a brand new day. Busy busy busy.

cao ge ~ superwoman

2008-06-02T04:32:00.002+08:00

I have to exclaim something, summer has stirred up my first love. Hahaha.

Okay when superme was in primary hmm 4 I think, I discovered Japanese band GLAY on a HK comic magazine in Singapore. Hahaha, well ya, all those countries are added for small world effect. Anyhow, so I had this huge thing for Jiro, the bassist of the band. Well, hmmm some of my close friends would probably remember that period. Oh yes superme. Anyhow, I was absolutely in love with jiro for like hmm till sec 2 or 3. Well once in a while I still listen to his radio show buggy night crash to hmm review my nihonjin. Then okay Dir en grey came along with Kaoru I kinda forgot about GLAY especially the newer albums (after hmm can't remember the names already the last I bought was the white glow in the dark one) weren't that appealing. Anyhow, jiro is one idol that I had for the longest time ever. So that's like my first love which brings about the next point.

So my dear lil friend summer threw superme this drama serial and stated that SUPERME HAS TO WATCH IT. I seldom watch chinese shows cos hmm I have a bad habit of reading subtitles and I read chinese very slowly so if I watch any chinese shows, I probably only catch half because by the 2nd half they would have moved on to the next line. I kinda like HK shows cos they're always super exciting but taiwanese hmm really seldom cos THEY ARE FRIGGIN SLOW! The last time when someone I think it's my sis threw me that meteor garden I almost shot myself because everyone is moving in snail pace and considering like taiwanese speak so friggin fast normally. Okay I know the show came out a while ago but yeah I finally watch it, it's Hana Kimi? OMG THE XIUYI GUY LOOKS LIKE JIRO SO MUCH! Okay, as a perfectly normal behaving fan girl, I went to wiki Hana Kimi, looked for their characters and he's called Jiro? Jiro Wang? OMG! HE IS LIKE TALL VERSION OF JIRO! OH swoooooon. The resemblance is uncanny. It's like Jiro speaking in mandarin. HOHOHO! Another language that I take longer to understand but still faster than Japanese. Okay too exaggerated, my mandarin is decent, just like 2 seconds slower than others when it's not spoken in the singaporean way.

And so I figured this Jiro Wang really thinks he looks like my jiro so he named himself jiro? So I was swooning about him to summer and she told me yea he's a jrock/GLAY fan. Kinda poseur yes no? I mean if I look like hmmm. Oh I know if Teru looks like Dick Lee, shouldn't he call himself Dick? (ah inside joke, only pam will understand) Ah, but it's nice seeing jiro again, hmm in another version. Hahaha. Oh talking about resemblance. You know that wu zun, yes I think everybody knows him but I just got to know him la, so ya here goes. HE LOOKS LIKE YONG XIANG NO!?!?!!?!!? While watching the show I was like aye..it's yongxiang lor. Come on. Now that I've finished the show, I still think so. You people go check it out and tell me, ya it's yong xiang. Hahahaha.

Okay now to point of the show I have exclaimed to many about my disturbance. THE BASIS OF THE STORY IS QUITE FREAKY NO!? A girl watches tv and saw the guy on and decides to look for him in taiwan and get to know him and see him in action? And turns out they are roommates. And when the girl confided in a dog that and he overhead it HE IS TOUCHED!? WHY IS HE TOUCHED!? DEAR MISTER YOU SHOULD BE AFRAID, VERY AFRAID. YOU SHOULD BE FREAKED OUT COS THAT'S CREEPY! *breathes* Well other than that and the slow pace, it's quite a funny show. Though I wanted to bang my head during the last episode. It really feels like reading the comic, kinda. Ya there's some sort of manga feel towards it.

cao ge ~ xin bu liao qing (ooh he did a great cover to superme's fave chinese song)

2008-05-31T16:08:00.002+08:00

The buzz of That 70s Show returns! No, no new episodes or whatsoever, just thought of watching and hey I finally watched the show's finale after hmm 2 years. Yea, cos I never really like the new characters in the new season and kelso and eric left the set? Yes my favourite is Hyde but oh wells, there's not much of draw still when the chemistry turns stale. Oh the sense of nostalgia.

Was watching this taiwanese drama. Oh come on, I have my sappy sides sometimes too. Anyhow it's one popular drama, hana kimi. I'm just gonna comment that the basis of the story is creepy? Hahaha. Come on, the transfer enters a boys' school to meet her idol? The part she confided in the dog and the guy overheard and he was kinda impressed by his influence. Oh man, I should be terribly freaked out instead. But well other than that, it's quite an entertaining show. Yes, I used to read a lot of manga, the show is just so comic book like. And that soccer guy? He has the comic book hair, that's funny. Ya in fact, most of them have the comic book hair, it's like effort 200%.

Okay and my computer went crazy and lost my monster hunt final draft. That sucks boy, that sucks. Gonna go re-type. That really sucks. That absolutely stinks. Shouldn't have played guitar hero. Argh.

2008-05-08T14:25:00.002+08:00

Hi beautiful world

Exciting time of the year, 31 colourful years of the Singapore Arts Festival and yes it's time of the year again. Haven't read much about it but 3 shows caught my eyes. The most exciting gotta be Radio and Juliet. No, it's nothing lame. It's superme's favourite band, Radiohead as the soundtrack of this modern take in Shakespeare's class-act, Romeo and Juliet. Yes I know I had and still have a lot to say about Shakespeare but R+J is still yours truly's favourite. So that's 1st with Radio & Juliet (Asian Premiere) by Slovene National Theatre Maribor. Sorry there's no built up suspense from 3rd to 1st cos I'm typing according to my excitement level! So it's naturally 1st first!!! Hahaha. Next up, second goes to The Lord of the Rings Symphony: Six Movements for Orchestra, Chorus and Soloists by Singapore Festival Orchestra/ Chorus of the Slovene National Theatres Maribor and Ljubljana/
Singapore Lyric Opera Children's Choir. Slovene seemed so cool to me all of a sudden. Okay superme's inner geek is a huge fan of LOTR, she had read the book at least 6 times, watching the shows sadly not as many times because money constrains I do no own the last of the trilogy, I hate to watch shows without preparing the endings. I have the soundtracks on endless loop last time till my comp crashed and now I'm just left with 2 pieces. So yup, I WOULD LOVE TO SEE THIS CONCERT! Yesyesyes! 3rd is to fulfil the visual media artist inside me from the land of the rising sun, no direction by Nibroll (Japan). It is a piece on social convention and a common fatigue, miscommunication. It is an interdisciplinary piece of work with all elements on the same footing translating the same message. It will be interesting.

Tell me more if you know more! Waiting to hear!

Anyhow onto the Brits. I love brit rock if you don't already know. So yes they invented alternative rock if you'll like to argue, alright at least they made it famous. OKAY that's not something I wanna talk about. Two huge bands from the land that I love do no like the way the industry functions and made our lives interesting with the message they're passing on. They hate the media the money that is goes no where but the capitalist labels. Making music is for the mass, not for the elite. Spreading music to the widest audience possible is what every musician wants. I mean cmon, mp3s with a price? That sucks doesn't it? Piracy works to a certain extent because it allows music to be passed on. It is not stealing music, it's call sharing. It is publicity for the artistes free of charge. If you want people to buy your albums, work for it. If it suck, I'm sorry, at least piracy tried to help. So anyhow, the alternative music distribution comes along, most recently being lead by macca, one of superme's heroes of all-time. And yes, the inner hippie-wannabe speaks, I love The Beatles. So macca was upset with the industry so he decided to distribute his album free with the newspaper. A very exciting and very hippie way of doing things don't you think? Do not think he needs more fans or more money or more publicity, he's PAUL MCCARTNEY, he has enough, more than enough. And not to forget all-time favourite Radiohead who allows fans to pay any amount for their new album. Oh how sweet. Any price is enough and any price you think their music's worth. Talk about UK being exciting. People in the UK are fortunate, really.

2008-05-05T17:50:00.003+08:00

I kinda forgot about blogs and journals this year. But at least I have my trusty dandy journal/sketchbook/notebook to track back with (just a consolation, not much of a help of this year's happenings). I think it's quite a lousy habit that I love to write especially when I'm not-so-happy? It kinda sucks and embarrassing to read about past sadness. Haha yup kinda lame and nothing in it makes you feel good about it.

I guess I'm quite satisfied with work this year, maybe cept for history. I really wanted to do well but as usual, every semester is a fiercer race with time. History, well, tend to be forgotten, oh check out the lil pun there, not intended. And come on, Dongson Drums and temple mountains? I really don't have much passion for them, sad to say. They are great reads, to be mistaken, amazing really. But I just can't think about them all the time, it's not fascinating to me yet. Anyhow, will be looking forward to Issues in Graphic Design next sem, ooh taught be Danne Ojeda. She sounds cool, looks pretty cool. Yup, one last shot at history. Hahaha. Hey, I really like western art history and history of graphic design, it's just those asian ones...

It's only been two sems of viscomm and almost every project I've been handed feels so commercialized. And I pretty much have complete freedom in what I wanna do, except for that person's class, but yeah. It's a bad feeling, isn't it? The way I see roger and jon, they are so mainstream. I mean, yeah they stand out within us because they have the ability, but they are hmmm pretty much average out there. I don't really want to be like them, can I work something out of this uncreative creative place? Yes step one, I've already figure I am not very fond of 2D things and found my way to 4D stuff. Yeah, leads me into my crazy timetable for the following semester, assuming I can keep the discipline I have this semester. I really have to do a lot, especially if I am still thinking about going on that crazy trip with hoon. Yes, I've been thinking about things quite a bit, especially after I designed a new name card for myself. Where will I end up doing my stuff? Crossing my fingers, I can break out of this thing. Oh a sudden surge of passion. Hahaha, oh please.

2008-05-02T22:50:00.003+08:00

Helloooooo

okay vacation is still in a mess. It's a lot of last minutes things or not at all I guess. Summer trip is not planned because I can't figure out where I want to go, and mum can only leave in June earliest. So I have a month? I guess I have some bit of time. July I have to figure out a way to Cambodia to check out Angkor Wat and Angkor Thom, or if life's nice I try a late June. And an exhibition to be thrown in July? Which by right means, I have to be doing my works in June. Hmmm tricky... And I have OC in August, which means everything has to be done from May-July. Hmmm very tricky.

Anyhow, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAY! Bestest wishes, I hope the egg is good. Haha, the egg from that Ramen place is FANTASTIC!

There there, I've finished my things for a while. Slacking in peace for a change. I say just let me rest a week or so before I move my ass to sort out my plans and thoughts. Oh ya rest till the sidekick flies off to the land of blue red white. Oh no, not the cool place, the one that I'm not fond of.

Supposedly I should throw a party for my 21st, said the parents. Gees, but not this year, I don't really want to......... Too many things going on in July. How should I plan a theme party? Do an Eileen with bubble wraps, haha maybe.. We'll see when I feel more enthusiastic about it.

Oh I need to watch some rubbish. Laters.

2008-04-24T13:10:00.004+08:00

A note to everyone that seemed to gotten attached, congrats. (from the spying eyes and accidental spies from all corners of adm) Haha

Let's post some much loved photos from Mesh.

There's was this long period of time that I really wanted to do display designs for the rest of my life. And now it seems like I'm really learning about it. Haha. Well, there were a lot of things I wanna do too like designing runway shows? But I figured experiences and environmental are the closest I can get to such stuff. The more I explore, the more I don't want to stick to graphic design because other than everyone can do that, I'm quite tired 2-D things, which I must also add I'm not that talented in. So let's all hope for the best for the upcoming module in a few months time.

Anyhow, all's done, everything handed up. YAY!!!!! Need to figure out the new show. Monograms, hmmmm. Figure out a venue first. I'll give the poetry show a miss, another time then. Gotta figure out monster hunt and friends too. I'm thinking of a place, lala.

Off i go then.

2008-04-18T16:52:00.002+08:00

I'm astounded by this report I saw...I extracted this from perezhilton.com

Sometimes people use the excuse of "art" in order to get away with craziness!

Aliza Shvarts, a Yale art major, has done something different for her senior art project this year.

The "artist" has documented herself throughout a 9 month process where she artificially inseminated herself and then periodically took abortifacient drugs in order to induce miscarriages.

The exhibit, which will begin next Tuesday, will include video recordings of the forced miscarriages.

WTF?!?!?! Ewwww!!!!!

It will also include preserved samples of the blood during the process.

According to Shvarts, her goal was to "spark conversation and debate on the relationship between art and the human body."

Students have expressed shock upon hearing of the exhibit. Rightfully so!

Shvarts insists that her art isn't for shock value. Liar. She says, "I hope it inspires some sort of discourse. Sure, some people will be upset with the message and will not agree with it, but it's not the intention of the piece to scandalize anyone."

As for the "donors", she claims they were not paid for their "services". She also claims to have required them to periodically take tests for STDs, though did not want to disclose the number of sperm donors used.

As for the medical risk related to multiple abortions, Shvarts says she was not worried. She said the abortifacient drugs she took were herbal and legal, and decided she didn't need to consult a doctor.

IDIOT!!!!!

What if she's caused herself serious and permanent damage????

At least this "artist" has one fan. Juan Castillo, another senior art major, said he was intrigued by the beauty of her project. He says, "I really loved the idea of this project, but a lot other people didn't. I think that most people were very resistant to thinking about what the project was really about. [The senior-art-project forum] stopped being a conversation on the work itself."

As for the actual exhibit, Schvarts will feature a large cube hanging from the ceiling. Wrapped around that cube will be hundreds of feet of plastic sheeting which will be lined with her blood from the miscarriages.

Ewwww!!!!

The old blood will be mixed with vaseline to prevent it from drying.

Double EWWWWWW!!!

She will also project the recorded videos of herself, showing the miscarriages she had in her bathtub, onto the sides of the cube.

Similar footage will also be projected onto the walls of the room.

We're starting to get a bit queezy!

This is TOO MUCH!!!!!!

Shvarts adds, "It was a private and personal endeavor, but also a transparent one for the most part. This isn't something I've been hiding." Adding, that she believes "strongly that art should be a medium for politics and ideologies, not just a commodity. I think that I'm creating a project that lives up to the standard of what art is supposed to be."

We're all for a woman's right to choose, but this is abusing that right.

We don't know what to think anymore.

What do U think?

I think this is insane? Yes Dada told us art is anything. But if it's this, I'm anti-art. As much as I like to leave my work for people's own judgement, but please justify why is abortion art? Art a medium for politics and ideologies? Art for art's sake and not a tool. What message is there behind this? Pro-abortion? I don't see why it can be pro-life or anything close. Maybe some people like to think death is beautiful but you do not murder and say that's an amazing piece of art. Or don't come tell me it is meant to be anti-war.. I really don't think I have to drive a tank down and kill ten over people to tell them that war is bad. This is so wrong..

2008-04-11T02:51:00.002+08:00

OKAY I MEANT TO UPDATE MY BLOG FOR THE LONGEST TIME. My schedule has been packed to the maximum spiders, I have been stressed to the maximum spiders, it still is. I know should be churning out the one million process books BUT I JUST WANNA SLACK A LIL TODAY. A lot has happened since feb, especially these 2 weeks, BREAKNECK. A sec of slacking will kill, I SWEAR. I post up some visuals real soon I hope, because lately had been a huge deal of satisfaction and fun.

Anyhow ELITE's over kinda long ago, so shan't talk about it anymore. It was tiring, though I was in the car.

Let's talk about schoooooooooool. Finally finally, gotten rid of Fading Tradition. Not quite cos I have not handed up the process book just yet. Anyhow, the final crit was insanely stressful. The panel made up of deborah, jesvin, astrid, martin and ong and this vp of the firm which deb spoke too fast. Nobody in class got it cos we kinda sang a birthday song for during the break. Deborah made fantastic cupcakes anyway, KILLER CHOCOLATE.

Back to the crit. For one, the comp was so friggin far from the panel? I had to employ lam to help me click my slides which was quite worrying cos I prepared the slides till the very last minute, I had no idea what came first. Anyhow I busted the wallet printing all the materials for the crit but were all rejected when I met deborah for consultation the day before. There were still tweaking left to do. ARGH. Knowing production sucks big time, I bought poster paper for emergency, so phew. BUT FRIGGIN PRINTER JUST WON'T PRINT IN THE FRIGGIN PACKED OPEN LAB. Blah, after a day of struggling everything was up but I was still worried about my foreigners campaign. It's swears by originality which I can get quite lame at, so I'm quite worried. And when I found out it was martin&ong on the panel I nearly died. Themes, research and customising were their thing, I AM SO DEAD. Brief intro, my fading trad was chinese opera. Campaign for locals was a range of cosmetics and for foreigners was a theme hotel suite. Final crit from the panel. *crossing fingers and drumroll* MARTIN GAVE THUMBS UP! OMFG, all the hard work and seemingly endless research paid off. Jesvin love the concepts, astrid had class during my turn so yup but after that when she came back she said she love the space design, deborah was happy for me cos I was panicking the day before the final. Woo~ Okay so ong asked me a question, why did I use DIN throughout? The truth is I was doing type spec for jesvin and kept falling in love with the typeface. But friggin, I said something like cos it looks new but has a long history, with a contemporary touch. It reflects my project, trying to bring back this fading tradition to something new and hip. Martin was impressed saying I thought about these details and jesvin was clapping behind, it was hilarious. I told deborah, A+star k? Haha.

Next up, Designed Experiences. Okay sadly by the time I post this, my favourite class has come to an end, but with a bigbigbigbig bang. Though the excitement is kinda gone, lets update a lil. Me and karen threw a black and white party for the class before our fieldtrip a few weeks back and everyone was pleasantly surprised, especially Lena cos she had a rough day. Oooh, astrid said it was chic and sophisticated. Haha Wheee! I love it that it was designed till the very last detail, oh love love love.

Okay I have huge episodes to talk about DE and typo. Back to work first. RAWR!

keane ~ we might as well be strangers

2008-02-24T12:16:00.002+08:00

Now that the distractions are gone, you focus on your melancholy and sink into sadness.

I try not to think about it too much but I'm really terribly upset. It's true, the more you want something the bigger the disappointment. The more confidence you acquire, the more the tears flow. Whatever happened to backup plans?

Anyhow, back to happier lands. Grease is done! I'm proud of my cast and crew, thanks for this wonderful experience! I'm really proud of my cast and stage crew. From the disorganised days in hall, to the disorganised days in theatre. Haha. But nevertheless, we had lots of fun and mess the place upside down. I'm glad I did it despite the reluctance and everything. Yes, hall productions can never be efficient. But professional productions can never be so amazingly satisfying. Happy accidents were scattered all over this clueless process of this weird musical dream. I'm glad we had fun, and the audience had fun. Superme has done it, or more like had a part in it, to bring back hall production with a big bang! Thanks for coming and thanks for the support from all over. Big thanks to yaen for guiding me throughout, I would have melted without you around. Superme really learnt a lot from this experience. Quite a few seniors tried so very hard to bring production back, this being their final struggle, you guys really did an amazing job - ziyen kellyn yongjie. You kiddies were really pillars to make things happen. It was terribly messy yesterday, I did not get to give a pat on the back to each and everyone. But once again, thank you so much.

Next war, ELITE, FOCAL and then OC. Meanwhile, my short-term happiness will be spent on printing works and working on projects.

2008-02-20T21:51:00.001+08:00

Hello, superme is very down.

Sigh, should I even talk about it? Never mind I guess, I hear sidekick's bike sound, time to go.

"ing-a-thing" is a success. First colour party might be coming true sooner than expected. Documenting grease is approved.

Life is not that bad.

Dinner time.

2008-02-11T01:45:00.000+08:00

Let me please rant about work.

I am a happy squirrel but so super stress.

I have comm in less than 12hours, find a company profile and dump it in class, review my project work for assignment 1 due to my lack of commitment and contributions which I am so so so sorry about! Tuesday is deborah day. I have my final crit for project launch which will lead to the final-final. Okay, I'm suppose to receive comments and be allowed to send my project for final tweaks. CAN'T WE JUST HAVE ONE CRIT AND LET IT GO!? I am so blank about this bus project that yes I received comments and feedback but I'm not doing anything!! Except for the obvious ones! I have less than 2 days, I haven't found a punch for my design!!!! Wednesday, I have to show my documentation of CNY for experience. I hope my photos turned out decent, gotta do a mock up for spreads just for better visual communications. I'm so terrified that I am not gonna get what I want. Till now I still refuse to review my photos, IN DENIAL! It's quiz week haven't been to a single lecture of my GE. I wonder when is my quiz!? I'm so busy? My "ing a thing" is following week. Good thing I already consulted astrid. Bad thing, I forgot to check out glass at art friend today. Hope that's cheap. And remember transparencies please! It's gonna be fun fun fun! Comes jesvin day on thursday which I think is insane? I feel that my studio is gonna be 8 hours? How the hell are we gonna do everything? Final crit for experimental poster which I have been constantly procrastinating. Thank goodness for winnie, telling me the poster has to be event details. And here, I'm thinking what cheesy quote I would form with my sequins. Nth letter draft and discussion, okay that sucks because I think my letters are ugly, serve me right for using fancy Zapfino, but come on, it's been a while since I used script fonts, have some mercy on me. I have been the biggest fan of clean sleek classic fonts, you know the real me! Give me a chance, I hope I can make it work, survive the discussion. There's supposed to be the other poster draft? Prepare the two poster drafts? I am so lost? Pick 2 from my worksheets and make it work? I think I get that, and I just learned what's reverse type. Thank you winnie goh again. How can I survive in school without you seriously. Okay, and karen too. Yes, my thank you speech. I borrowed a book on Paul Renner. Yay for being so prepared and hardworking. But it stops there. I haven't read a single word except for the cover. I am supposed to come up with a short paragraph and dump it in class as well. Supposedly, I have to translate that into another language, let's keep it simple, chinese will do. Who's Paul Renner? Till now, I still think he's the creator of Futura, at the back of my mind it's still singing Paul Rand. Don't quote me for this, I'm still uncertain if he did create Futura.

And breathe.

Cherry on top, I have SP, which is next week!!! I am so stressed out, I'm supposed to take leave from school from wed to fri? But I forgot I have my "ing a thing" presentation. SO SCREWED. After my two insane weeks, I'll take a lil break. But I have my OP presentation following friday, which means tons of research. Who says who should go on a shopping spree in Bangkok? Superme is a busy busy girl.

Hey I haven't really been slacking you know, seriously. This semester just hasn't been very kind on me.

Oh well, let's share a lil something happy. Sidekick is still very sweet and handsome. Hahahaha. Thanks for driving me around today despite waking you up due to my own sleeping disorder. Superme really loves you very much!

Another happy finding. Material of the moment. I wanted to find hessian, to use for housing some works of mine, instead of making boxes or folders all the time. Then the guy told me we don't call it hessian but just rice sack material. Anyhow they don't have it in art friend. I went over to the furnishing department of spotlight and found something similar and I AM SO THRILLED! I have no idea what is it called, I can find that out easily. It may be a smaller weave than what I was intending to get, but it works just fine. The highlight, IT COMES IN LOUD CUTE COLOURS! I bought the common off-white, super loud pink and orange. I really want the grass green and lime yellow too, but why do I need so much fabric to experiment? I will end up with everything in a sack if I am to buy them all. It's $4,99 a metre! I think it's quite worth it? I know spotlight is overpriced, but hey I'm happy man! I'm thinking if I can use it for experi, think the material will look good on camera. Yay!

listening ~ sounds of cashmere mafia (this new show I'm following)

2008-02-08T01:51:00.000+08:00

HUAT AH!

GONG XI GONG XI! More ang baos please, to finance my school terms. Haha. Anyhow, it's been a rather slow CHU YI. Only highlight was the finale of chu yi with two rounds of mj with huans juans and wens.

Alright, let's talk about that sex scandal thing of edison chen. Okay, me on edison? I used to think he's so super cute and permanently drugged. He always had this daze and un-focused thing going on in his eyes. I watched his video apology on youtube. Hmmm "strange strange ordeal"? Why is it strange? I mean, he kinda planned to take the photos. It's not that strange if you think about it? In this amazing wonderful world of technology, files on desktop isn't exactly secure, isn't it?

Oh well, on the girls. I don't quite get it why if guys sleep around or perform sexual acts or whatsoever, and ended up getting caught the end result will never be as harsh as the girls. The girls are usually, generally called sluts or whores, whichever you sorta prefer. The guys, probably just called player? That's the first that hit my mind. Player, meaning he plays around with girls or sees girls as conquests. I mean, that is nothing demeaning?? Girls should protect their modesty, but that doesn't mean guys shouldn't. Oh and come on, stop thinking the society today is oh-so-conservative, girls are no longer as angelic as you think they are. Yes, gillian chung may still look like an angel, but doesn't mean she's perfect. And it's not like sex is evil, come on. They're not underage, they are pretty faces, and sought after by paparazzi twentyfourseven, just give them their lives back sometimes. They're celebrities, not my friends, should I really care if they do not have good conducts?

Well, I'm just thinking what would their loved ones do. That's kinda sad isn't it? It's kinda like the smoking issue. You don't really want your parents to know about such things. Welllll, your parents will always think you're an angel, until such things hit them in the face. Sidenote, I have quit smoking, I'm just bringing it up for experience sake. And it's kinda pathetic that their work are disrupted by this scandal. Are they really meant to be role models? That's just pretty bizarre. I don't know, I don't look up to zoe tay as a role model, I just can't imagine. Sorry.

Sleepy. More things to do for project tomorrow!

2008-02-01T14:12:00.000+08:00

Been super duper busy!

I have like a million things to do, figuratively, almost literally. I'm rather excited to do my experimental typography poster? You know I like to form words using things. Hahaha. Anyhow, jesvin laughed at my "disco never dies" idea. Gees, she said this tacky idea is pretty good. Hmmmmmm. Must I always be the one that does the funny things? Oh wells. Beginning to have sleepless nights, not like I want to. Good thing, it's gonna be a few more weeks, till Grease is done. Bad thing, it's gonna be A FEW MORE WEEKS, till Grease is done. I'm glad I still have the will to do it so far, rehearsals-projects-whatever time to sleep-workshop. Pat on the back that I turned up for my morning tutorial today! It irritates me sometimes, when some are reluctant to rehearse because there's school in the morning. Well, I can do, so can you. Or maybe complaining makes things better, alright, forgiven.

Moving on to Grease. I'm so glad everything is coming together. On the bitchy side, I can't believe I'm doing a production for free. But, it really has been an amazing experience. For one, if I'm being paid, I wouldn't be a director, well not like I know very well how to. It's so different when you know all the people. I'm just being too positive now, erasing the hiccoughs temporary.

Still sore that we didn't have beef hor fun at geylang yesterday. Noooooooooo. Didn't get much visuals for project at chinatown either. Sigh, what should I do? Someone tell me how to translate Chinese New Year. Help. I'm too psyched about it, to think of something deep.

Back to my million things.

starsailor ~ silence is easy

2008-01-20T02:58:00.000+08:00

Sidekick is trying to sleep while superme can't get to sleep early this morning. Somebody is gonna experience his first off-road in malaysia tomorrow. As much as I'm against it, do have fun and ride safely in your shortie-mobile.

Exciting news of the week. I've applied for an exchange in guess where!? Moholy-Nagy University of Art and Design in Hungary!! Amazing thing is I was the only applicant? And there's only one placement? So I guess it's quite a high chance I can get it! Who cares if winter is -30 degrees. Astrid said I'm young, I can survive the cold and it's better to go during first semester, SO yeah, fuck the cold. I am so gonna backpack Europe and everything. Their curriculum is so bizarre and exciting. Bizarre in a good way. They have core like chromatics, morphology, dramaturgy in like Graphic Design? It's like everybody takes designed experiences there! I'm so bringing flash mobs there! Budapest is a place with amazingly rich culture, I'm just gonna go there to absorb and absorb. So what if I fail every single mod there!! I will be touring Europe! Top of it all, I can be part of BAUHAUS legacy. It's like a dream come true. LEGENDARY! Okay, don't mind the disorganised exclamations, I'm just very hyped up. I should stop talking like I already gotten the place. Let's just hope things go smooth. Only pull back is, not gonna see my sidekick for nine months... Sigggggh.

momemomemomemomemomemomemome, I'm going to MOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-01-09T12:08:00.000+08:00

Say hi to 2008!!!

First day of lesson down, and it wasn't too bad. It was such a chore to get my mere 18.0au registered, and finally it was done. Though I've gotten a five-day week, it wasn't so bad. It's time to be so much more discipline this semester. Graphic Design II was pretty enjoyable, as of now, with deborah. Well, maybe I do miss jesvin with her ridiculous assignments and accent. Ridiculous not meaning tough but ridiculous. I'm looking forward to designed experiences!!! despite the potential of cancellation. I would be really bummed then, I had to choose like some chemistry GE cos it fell on the GE timing? Didn't get survey of new media as wanted, will really wanna try that next semester. One lil resolution for the academic semester, I really wanna explore more into filming. Filming, more like home-made videoing. Video-making how bout it? Love this media.

I caught My Blueberry Nights last week, to sidekick's dismay. It's still Wong Kar Wai's style if you tell me it's Wong Kar Wai. Okay, I mean, I felt that it was like somebody copying his style? His characters were not as charming as usual. There wasn't anything extraordinary or 'detail-ly interesting'. It would probably a disappointment if not for Jude Law and Natalie Portman. There were a lot of details that we've already seen in his other shows. Instead of being reflective, I thought it was just used and tried. Norah Jones was quite painful to watch. But the rest of the cast caught really act though. I kinda like the Suellen character the best. It was one of the only few that retained the wong's flavour.

Happy birthday dingggg! Thanks for the disgusting shot. Oh, talk about ELITE, I'm financial controller! Hahaha! Spastic.

2007-12-31T02:43:00.000+08:00

Goodbye last day of 2007 and HELLO eve of 2008.

Let's talk about 2007 and stuff.

I started 2007 with a fever I remembered. Took a cab down to Clarke Quay to meet the gang despite the temperature and had a beer or two. Woke up with temperature and hangover. Spent the first few hours of 2007 getting drunk and getting a cab.

And then school start. Second semester of first academic year wasn't too friendly. Still hated 3D, and everything else became tougher by a notch. But it was ceteris paribus mannn, schoolwork became tougher, procrastination became harder to fight, hall stuff were getting to me. In that view, school work became a super villian. But I still came up with works that I really like before summer break came about. Remember the gardenful doodles and the hockey lomo video and the bright lights presentation.

Came summer break, it was super shanghai, that oriental pearl place. I CAN STILL REMEMBER THE TASTE OF A PLUS STAR XIAO LONG BAOS! Eye-opener, truly. Never really expect myself to have so much fun in an asian city. It was intersem, taking Japanese? Ooh, mistake. Or maybe not so much, considering I found my sidekick then. I got seduced and bewitched and scored a lousy grade for my intersem. With superme's amazing 5 year old drawings, sidekick scored a B for his whatever electricity paper. Who pulled who down seriously? Oh ya, I will not forget the endless mahjong sessions. Seriously, I've never played so much mahjong in my entire life before. It was seriously insane but totally fun. And the 3 long days that seemed forever when me and huans started shifting to our new rooms. Every 3 trips equals to a game of mahjong which also means a 3 hour break after every half hour trips.

And came pre-OC and OC. Ooh, really fun days. Pure brainless activities. Shortie Kenji stayed over during pre-OC and hung his undies along the corridor, that I will never forget. Or maybe I shouldn't have publicized. Okay and so I was stressing over my inability to remember chinese cheers, or maybe it was my inability to sound normal in non-english cheers. Came days of the camp, the cedarian in me kinda revived, cheers came to me at a decent flow. It was really fun to the maximum spiders times ten, from day zero me and tian splashing paint last minute on our OG identities to day five, having nasi with our freshies talking about our 5 days experience that really felt like 2 years. I still have not forgetten how I think OC is a conspiracy to kill me. Refer to earlier entries alright? The degree of devotion to hall, I became programmer for OC and director for SP the coming year, that's kinda cool and I'm proud of. Vs up.

School had to commence all over again. But it was interesting. Started off rather focus until I got my assignments all wrong and it started to sink from there, kinda showed when I got back my results yesterday. AT LEAST I DIDN'T FAIL ASIAN ART HISTORY. Pathetic, but well-deserved, so I'm not exactly complaining. Work hard next semester, not just me, everyone else too. Oh yes, I'm blessing everyone. Especially you sidekick. Maths 4, hello? Maths 4.

Let's talk a lil about christmas. Mount Faber with sidekick and amanda and jason. I paid money to watch pasar malam lights. HAHA and cheesey dance. It was cornily amusing. But the cable car point and ride were the pluses. Dinner with my royals was good. Most I haven't seen for quite some time. I enjoyed myself other than the ribs were lousy. Christmas eve with my parents, good food, yums. I say that cos I'm gonna compare it with the Christmas day dinner with sidekick. Hahahaha. Failed rosti, chopped up salmon, over cooked beef, undercooked pasta with insufficient bacon, processed soup. It was a lot of food. I still blame sidekick for the failed dinner. Haha, I don't screw up dinner menus. Bleah. But you know I enjoyed myself, heh. I almost collapsed after eating please. It's how christmas is supposed to be, okay other than dissing santa as a tool of devil. It's not like we turned up for service we can't judge. Anyhow, beside the religious aspect, it's meant to be cosy and warm and all about the homecooked food. Christmas, success. Present, semi-success.

Oh ya, and my sidekick. Thank goodness for you! I was hidden in darkness, walking blindly, drowning in cosmos...ah kidding, you wish. I'm still sore you only had a bite of the chocolate cheesecake that I skipped lecture and took pains to buy and carry it back on your birthday, OH SORE. Remember 17th day's broccoli? Ho ho ho! Our relationship is built on immense annoyance and irritance attacks. Okay, the nice lil sweeter stuff shall be kept in a jar inside me.

A few resolutions to still keep in mind. Hey, my new year resolutions normally work out well. Do better in school. Lose some weight. I can't decide whether to annoy sidekick more or less and whether to watch more shows or less. Discover more too. Discovery is an important tool.

All in all, 2007 became perfect when that blue horse (now grey) stepped onto my laptop.

massive attack ~ house's opening theme (WAHAHAHAHA!)

2007-12-19T23:46:00.000+08:00

Hello!

Sick, very very sick. Sigh. Well but I think I'm better. Thanks dearie for making a trip back to hall last night and sending me home.

Oh well, the theory of procrastination. If someone actually talks about that, it's like big time procrastination. Isn't it? And isn't it a wonder? Who procrastinates about procrastination? Well, I think it's quite a norm, you know, to be lazier than lazy. Anyhow, it's the holidays, nobody cares about anything though I still have a million things to do.

Let's talk about something. I'm having sleeping disorders. Well, even my mum noticed it. She told why am I sleeping so late, okay asked. Well I said, I'm not, I'm not even sleeping. Gees. Even with a temperature and a stuck nose, I had to sing a lullaby for myself. Ah, kidding. Even Darren fell asleep while getting me to fall asleep. Argh.

Nothing much to talk about. Selamat Hari Raya and Merry Christmas folks. The others, Happy Hannukkah? Happy Holidays!

Oh procrastination preparation. Plan for summer holidays when the semester starts. Yay!

texas ~ halo

2007-12-12T22:02:00.000+08:00

I am bored. I am so bored. I am so super bored.

Maybe you will like to sit with me for two minutes. Maybe you can just spare two minutes?

2007-12-07T19:21:00.000+08:00

CHEERS!

How I Met Your Mother, is like the no.1 comedy to watch. Le-wait for it!!-gendary. Hoho. Watch it everyone!

Still hasn't gone down to cityhall. That stinks.

Gotten happy things for me and sidekick! Bought us the long pillow, and now we have too many pillows hanging around. But the print is kinda hmm hideous. Okay, not hideous, not something I will ever buy, but there's only like 3 stickman lovey prints to choose from. Sidekick has been complaining about pillows, and I've been complaining about pillows.

2007-11-29T08:25:00.000+08:00

Tian questioned if the blog was still alive. Anyhow, so here's a summary of what happened so far in the wonderful review episode of superme. Oh and anyway, I don't know what went wrong with the tagboard, OH NOT LIKE IT'S ABSOLUTELY USEFUL.

Cooked red bean soup today for the sidekick, with bo bo cha cha jelly. Yes it's odd, everybody said that, but he loveslovesloves it, so made him a happy boy today. Turns out the sago and jelly were better than the red bean, he said. BUT THE RED BEAN WAS GOOD TOO WHAT! And said something wrong to sui today. He thanked me for the soup, me said thanks, then he said feeling very thankful that he almost didn't make it back to drink the soup. I said go and die??? Cos I saw it as he felt thankful he didn't make it back to drink, thinking he was doing another yongjie, drinking my soup will get him mc for 3 days. Turns out sui skidded and almostalmost gotten into an accident. SORRY BRO!!!! I TAKE BACK MY WORDS A HUNDRED TIMES! THANK GOODNESS YOU MADE IT BACK TO DRINK THE RED BEAN SOUP!

Papers were over a while back. Great. Kasimir Malevich absolutely ran out of my mind, I took like ten years to recall the name but never did during the paper. Oh well, not like the questions was focusing on Suprematism, phew. I think I did fine, though didn't have time to finish, and not a wow-finish too. I did study pretty hard I think, and I'm here wishing.

Guess what? I picked up DOTA. Oh yes. Because the sidekick can't stop playing, he's gonna like fail a hundred times over, I can take over his comp and make him feel like a girl. Other than I keep dying, it's pretty fun seriously. More on comps, I upgraded Mr White finally too, which also reminds me of my depressing school work. Let's just pass this semester and work triply hard the next semester. Yes, it's all over now, get over it. Sigh. Sigggggggggggh.

The shopping days have arrived. BEAMS! Christmas sales will be nice. The other day at Vivo, superme didn't exactly go crazy, but it's about time. Hohoho! And the sidekick said, do I need more make up? YES YES YES! Something I do not need though, bags. I was packing my stuff and realised I do have cupboards full of bags. And I'm going for my shopping spree overseas soon!! Soon in like January though, should not really include impulse shopping yet. Time for HO too!! YAY! Happy holidays guys. Anyway Singapore Design Festival is here! Do check some stuff out! Meeting winns and shu later for booksactually. Yoohoooooo~

OUT!

darren ma jia wei ~ snoring

2007-10-02T03:18:00.000+08:00

There were things that I really wanted to do too. Now, they are just things that I cannot do.

I look at all of you in envy and tears. But I don't wanna feel helpless.

2007-10-01T23:33:00.000+08:00

Oh brainless talks.

Alright, and I'm finally done with narrative after like 10292384 tries. Plans for now is to just do as I wish first, not being too particular and ambitious, when there's time left, we can always touch up, polish up some stuff. Yes? Sigh, I'm tired. There's still tons to do...

Radiohead is the coolest thing. They're giving away their new album, In Rainbows, for free. Yup, for real, you can any amount as you wish! It's pretty much their kinda thing, now that they are not signed to any major label, that's pretty it.

Anyhow, superme is pretty much very much in love. So she thought it will be a very nice gesture to celebrate love in a poem,

"Love, and you shall be loved. All love is mathematically just, as much as the two sides of an algebraic equation."
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

especially, to remind herself, she has a very science-y logical boyfriend. I love you anyhow, happy 52 days!

2007-09-25T05:29:00.001+08:00

Feed the cats.

I had a rather enjoyable conversation, a mental conversation, with myself today. I see the light, probably. But, can't help feeling helpless and silly. How practical? Can I just write prose and verses? Expressions in abstraction, am I being sensitive or secretive? Why must everything be so countable... I don't like that feeling. Planned and predictable. Whatever happened to daydreaming? Cloud-making. That's nice.

I wanna go down to Ikea one of these days. To get some lil things to cheer myself up. No, not that I'm feeling down or anything. But everyone can do with a pinch more of happiness in life. I want that kid easel, it makes sense, I love to doodle but I can't exactly draw well... Why spend so much on an easel, the kid one is cute. Okay, I don't exactly need one too but it just looks cute, an alternative to chalk board.

I miss having cats around... Sigh, it will be nice if I have my own lil space.

2007-09-18T14:14:00.000+08:00

Been pretty tense for the past few days, weeks or so. Finally about on par with work in school. Lots to be worked on during recess. Pretty hyped up I must say.

Book binding is like a new hobby now. Experimenting with different materials is exciting! Haha. Lots of idea, waiting for the weekends to arrive to buy some nice lil things to work on. Ooh, back to my love for paper. Ah, and stitching. Time to get new needles, tiny holes puncher and grommets. YAY!!!!

Went to see Ryoji Ikeda's C41 and Datamatics. Okay, maybe I prefer it in the context of museums. It doesn't seem as good when you see an installation in a studio. I don't know why, it's just me. I'm very excited when the numbers came out but more or less pretty dry for the rest.

Is science a religion? Maybe nature should be science and religion. What do we fall towards more? Science or religion? Think about it again, but how much do you care? Are you lost? Because I am. We are always trying to locate. In between, I forget what it was in the beginning. The beginning? And again, is that science or religion?

And for the part on datamatics. Can you see the wrongs? What's so wrong about wrong? Do you believe in the beauty in imperfection? What if the rights are not so right? Don't you find right and perfection overused and boring? So, what do you see? Right or wrong? I'm confused. All these confusion, questions left unanswered. Or maybe there is indeed no depth at all. Data and information will always just be superficial. Am I certain?

A lot to talk about lately. I tend to forget to talk to myself these days. Are we so busy these days?

2007-09-05T03:54:00.000+08:00

Some visuals from the DND!

2007-09-02T21:24:00.000+08:00

The adventures of the amazing superme. Now now, where did the sidekick go? And we wrote on horses made by sticks.

Okie visuals later cos superme's camera went flat on batt and left on her sidekick's action mobile.

The week was superme's struggle in fighting the red eye epidemic that seemed so annual. Fierce fight since thursday. But well, evil never triumphs, not much. I'm losing the red. It sucks to have snort in your eye all the time. I like my eyes clean. Appreciate snort-free eyes now everyone. And appreciate the whites in your eye.

Then come hall 3's Dinner and Dance on saturday. I'm still proud that superme came up with the name. Oh yes. Flamboyance. Not much like what I imagined but good enough. Yes, this is where the no visuals come in part. Let's start with how superme's sidekick is soooooo adorable. Adorably dumb. JCRC was supposed to be ready by 630? Darren and I aimmed to reach at 6 odd? Never mind he pushed back the meeting time a while, I wasn't ready anyhow. Tralalala. Then, the engineer forgotten about something and U-turned back home. Oh okie, means more sashimi time with daddy at home. And so superme gotta change into her getup because there was no way reaching in time when we're meeting at 630. Ho ho. While on Zion Road, while on the line with Tians, some strange screams were heard on board. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha (I still can't stop laughing!) Somebody forgot to bring his suit. Hahahahaha. Nobody can be as adorable as Darren la dey!

It was quite sad that the theme was not closely followed. It would have been so much more fun. But yea, it was still fun seeing everyone dress up. Superme turned up in her checkered cheongsam. Hey yo funky one! Haha. Although Darren refused to turn up in fedora and suspenders, he's still oh-so-darn-hot! Hahaha. Never mind, his pin-stripes doesn't match his pants, his stripes are like not blue, not green, his shoes are not dressy enough, the pants are ill fitting and the funny skinny tie. BUT HE'S STILL THE HOTTEST, cos he's my no.1! Yay! I don't understand how he can look Shanghai Tan-ish just with his combed back hair. No complaints, he looked like my ma lao ban. And my ma lao ban paid $50 and had his food cleared before eating any bit. Hahahahahahaha. Just not your day kiddo! Consolation, he won a laptop bag for stripping on stage?

Congrats to ISADORA for winning hall princess! Yup, she was outstanding yesterday for me. She pulled off make-up the best compared to the rest. Yup! Happy that Gao Li won, was rooting for him. Go saint! Hahaha. Oh ya, I've completed my dare from Jingshan yesterday, I dressed up as an Ah Tiong. So stop bugging me about it! Ho ho. It was fun playing dumbass games back in the hotel room. Oh not so dumb after all, it was BANG! first. Hahaha. And as usual drinking games. LOBIN AH LOBIN, we laugh at you everyday all day all the time. Okay fine, I have my share at drinking too. It sucks being on Team Darren! You just keep drinking cos that lousy horse that can't stop talking! But oh wells, nobody gotten drunk. We good. It was funny seeing weimin cross-eyed and high! Hahahaha. Oh funny las you kiddos!

Okie, here's my long essay. I love my sidekick very much! He feels very smart dating an art student. Yes yes, engineers are so smart!!!!

Oh ya, I got my lil pot of plant! I love my prants and frowers!!! Heh!

ne-yo ~ because of you

2007-08-22T03:39:00.000+08:00

It was my sunshine's twenty-fourth rounds around the sun last friday! Here's of us a wee bit fuzzy after some drinks. Stop having the disillusion that you're kimura...

It was a bite of cheesecake, a tour in limegreen skimps, a barcadi 151, mr nonsense, a lil blue box and many many hugs and kisses from the girlfriend!

As much as being a noob, I STILL LOVE YOU!!! Let's try the photobooth thing again, I won't give up, I won't let it rest! Whee~

2007-08-22T02:16:00.000+08:00

Superme is sick again. Coughs. And the sore throat strikes back. Sigh. And you know how lethargy strikes when ya sick, I took the chance to sleep the day away as a wonderful excuse. Alas, I can't continue sleeping away the velvet night.

I am very amused with the digestive cookies that come in the shape of a horse. Okay, in many other funny shapes too. There's only like one lil horse in the entire pack. Gees. Anyhow, all hail to happy food! Will my sunshine stop feeding me though!?

Hmmm keep having this nagging thought at the back of my mind lately. I thought of filming it down. Haha. Is that disturbing or something? I actually think it's rather good material. Then again, something rather cliche. But it's just for my own entertainment isn't it? I wonder how it would be like to be a film student. No no, I'm not regretting my choice is vc. All hail VC!

Okay I'm beginning to sound boring. Anyhow, I popped by zouk flea on sunday. To winnie's no surprise, I arrived at five odd six again. Sorry me and darren like to laze our lazy days away. Random, not so random comment, STOP EATING INFERIOR JAPANESE FOOD! Grabbed yet another necklace from the flea. Thought of getting the monster series, but ahh! stop buying things that are utterly useless. Ooh, met kiyoko and realised she's first year at ADM. Haha, welcome to the family.

Someone slipped the carl's junior's promotional coupons under my door. Let's date someone for sinful fastfood really soon! Yes jason!?!!?!!!?

ne-yo ~ a sexy love

2007-08-16T19:49:00.000+08:00

Hello all your poseurs yo! Whee~

Okay, I'm waiting for my OG to be done with their dinner while I'm dressing up for some hall bash. (No, no, not all those entire-hall-comes-together-to-bash-yongjie-ups) An actual hall party at butter factory. Oh yes. Yeah, probably will see celeste and bobby there, yes? Been a while.

I don't feel like an art student these days. Have been dressing down, and producing lousy works. Yawns. BUT history was amazing today. I pretty much dig ancient history. Hieroglyphs and cuneiforms? Pretty impressive stuff. It's a wonder really. As astrid would put it, extraordinary.

I love my horse today, everyday! Anyhow, that kid has been the sweeeeeeeetest! So cheers! Superme is a happy kid! That tiny blue horse is really funny. I would paint a mural based on it. Haha. It's funny how my history of graphic design lecture today had this segment of history of horse paintings. That's absolutely random I get it.

okay, bash time.

n e r d ~ she wants to move

2007-08-10T17:42:00.000+08:00

Espionage's over by the time I wrote this. Oooh, OC fever still on. It was a great experience really. Thank the organising committe, seniors and the freshies AND MY CO-GL TIAN OF THE XUE OF THE YUAN! Although within me still think that OC is a secret plot to attack and kill superme. A 6-day camp to celebrate the hatred for superme. Haha, yes, I was attacked at almost every station, every game, everyday. Oh well, all in the name of fun! I had my fun spying, did you too!? Post up the visuals really soon.

Anyhow, school has started! ALL HAIL TYPOGRAPHY! Haha, doesnt mean I'll be doing well in it, but I LOVE TYPOGRAPHY! Yes, viscomm is much more focused, so I'm enjoying it. Yes, draw all the Ms in the world. Haha. Somehow, all seemed very commercialised. It just doesn't seemed as experimental as before. Hmmmmm do I really want to do this? Projects are streaming in real fast.

All day I think of breakast food.

Trapped in our mini wonderland. We'll just laze around and forget about the world. Let's not be perfect. Loves the lover very much!

texas ~ white on blonde

2007-07-28T02:44:00.000+08:00

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ESPIONAGE IN TWO DAYS!!!!! GL days are here!!!!!! WOO! Despite not turning up for FOC last year, glad I still get this lil chance to be a GL. Hah. Woo, superme is so enthu. PRETTY MUCH HYPED UP! Hahaha. Superme is not the nonchalent kind 24/7 throughout the year. Sometimes I walk out of my art student shell too. AND WE SPY AND SPY AND SPY. Aye junwens, SORRY CHIEF, sorry for having goldfish memory and taking forever to remember cheers. Working hard on it la come on! Hope the turnout will be good, cos the program is good! Saw many familiar faces at the booth today. Next semester should be good.

Fuzzywuzzy brain.

PAINT THE BIG BANNER TOMORROW. I was walking around with the cloth, I looked like I was doing pre-monster hunt. Will be a long day tomorrow. Never mind, BEAUTIFUL DAY EVERYDAY! WOO! So super high. Hahaha.

I sensed. Tsk.

I am a starfish. Ooh, starfish.

Oh, a friggin snail crossed my path today. Because it was in the middle of my way and the path was narrow, it left me with no choice but to detour. Argh. Yes yes, tell me snails can never outrun me, I get it. Super disgusting, it's the sickest organism ever lived. I hate rainy days. I really do. Cos snails will be everywhere. I will never forget the episode when there was a huge one that attacked the SA girls toilet. Thank goodness I wasn't in school that day, but no thanks to aloo who took a picture of it and posted it up on the band blog. Hahaha. I remembered the caption going something like, "thank goodness huimin wasn't in school today". Mao. It was stuck onto the friggin wall and it was like the size of an average palm. ZOMGZXOXOOZOXOXOO! Distraught. Ahhhhh, please fellow snails-phobics avoid can13 and 14 during rainy days and also huan long's room. Argh.

mars volta ~ cassandra gemini

2007-07-26T12:11:00.000+08:00

Ooh. Rainy rainy.

Done with intersem. Oh yes, I'm done with japanese level 1. Oh the truckload of AV phrases picked up from my dear friends like kimochi kimochi kimochi, yameteeeee, itaaaai ne... Let's hope I did okay.

Darren is a bukkake.

Sleep, do I wanna sleep? I will miss sleeping next week. OC BEGINS! Alright, yo!!! And friday we dance dance dance and paint paint paint. And all shall gear up for espionage on monday. Wheeowhee! Spy, keep spying, just keep spying.

Random random thoughts. I think I'm going crazy. Woohoo~

keane ~ somewhere we belong

2007-07-21T20:43:00.000+08:00

Hello white page, superme is finally home after two weeks. I miss my bed.

I'm over at Blk C now. Sigh, it's rather foreign for now since there's no one and the soap dispenser is on the right and I'm turning to the left once I enter the gate. I took like 3 days to shift everything over and it's a once in a year affair that my room is neat and tidy. HAHA! Then again, the beauty of vis comm, my room might stay in this state for a while. I thought of rearing a goldfish.

Seniors' Camp was fun. I must say I ran out of energy here and there. Anyhow, THANK THE SENIORS AND DO COME BACK ON THE 30TH FOR THE ACTUAL THING! FOC is on the 30th!! Can't hardly wait! WOO!

And there was so much mahjong going around, I almost went crazy. Haha. The number of nights and days that we played till breakfast and lunch. The number of zi muo man by lin sui and the number of times we tried to clear each other's kong. Mahjong camp was good while it lasted. HAHA. Alas, now we really say goodbye to some seniors, though I'm quite sure we didn't exactly gotten rid of them thoroughly.

Okay, time to check out the real world for a while. Off I go!

2007-07-06T23:57:00.000+08:00

Alright, will be working hard to turn up for band practices cos I really miss playing saxophone. Yes, big time. Fiddling around with the fiddle had been good too. Well, ya, I just wanna play.

Working hard on my third language too. Oh yes, nihongo, believe it or not. I know I've always been quite gifted in the area of language. HAHA! Anyhow, owe some credits to wendy and lil jun. Stop teaching me ridiculous phrases and trying to trick me into embarrassing myself in front of my sensei, thanks and no thanks. I have lousy friends, no just that one friend. I haven't used that language for so friggin long, I can only say Takuya Kimura in the perfect tone and accent. Well wendy taught me how to say how to place your foot in your mouth, that's so cool. There are reasons why I receive endless smackings from her.

I am so in love with checkered shirts. Pink, green, blue, oooh they're all so pretty. Oh yes, you look so good in checks. And oh yes, me too! HAHA! Welcome to superme's world of random thoughts and rants. Most people look better in stripes and they add funk to wardrobe. BUT checks are so much more cooler but not many can pull them off. If you can't, wardrobe value goes down by a million. Dear friends, please be careful. For those who made the cut, welcome to the club, CHECKS ARE SO COOL!

2007-07-01T09:43:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to me! Twenty rounds around the sun, as winnie goh once said. Wheeowhee.

Let's do a round of thanks!

Thanks for those who celebrated with me at california pizza, my bandies: marcus enru amy yaofeng andrehorfunhor huishan deon MELVYN MY FELLOW FIRST JULYER! and my birthday surprise of liangshi's presence and not may's and christopher's. -_-" AND WHO CAN FORGET NAJIP! Thanks najip, for always stalking me and amy with that big $50 cheque that we can never ever win. FINISH UP YOUR FOOD TODAY! (yes, we're talking about najip ali, ASIA BAGUS!) And to sally too, who attempted to turn up in her taekwondo pants but alas failed. HAHA!

Thanks for the lovely messages and calls I received. Yes kaycee, I'm glad my phone rang. Haha. alecia joyce sarah lihao steph jianming yiiyin mengkit kaycee ziyen leonard ron kevin tian enru sashi clement amanda valerie jerome jinghui kenji(the one that made sure he called, messaged, was seen, was hugged) jianzong jonathan jarryl yongjie nicole MELVYN AGAIN! YAY!!! marcus roy jasmin moon may cherk jackie yunshan yippi huanlong amanda wendy andre and the one that couldn't be around.

Big hugs and kisses for those celebrated the last few hours of me being 19 and first few hours of me being 20! nigel jerome! Jerome can spin now! HOW COOL!? anqi marc yongjie linsui kaiyong liyun jon melvin sandie kenji darren chriz junwen huijuan jason yaen amos zhiguang(the one that left the receipt with the gift in the bag) jianlun(the one with amazing efforts) jingshun daphne alicia crystal dawn rongzhu amanda jason marcus tau sharon!!! mummy and daddy too!

Big thank you for the gifts and cards and memos(yes that's for the yellow and the funny coloured post-its). Felt the warmth from these kids and their presents despite not seeing them. ziyen shuicai yoyoyippiyeo tian xiaohan. JASMIN, your swedish love is felt in singapura! Ho ho! LOVES YOUS!

Love my classmates too! Thanks for the lego speakers and dinner!! ken kaderthevadertheinvader cherryn amanda mingwei shuhui bernard hiang karen weiqi changzi nicole!

And my camera died before I could take pictures with anyone. I have like ten pictures taken with lil soh before it died. -_-" And with anqi and marc, the one that couldn't open his eyes.

Happy birthday superme!

2007-06-27T05:29:00.000+08:00

Just thought of scribbling stuff.

Running away for that logo design. I'm trying hard to think why it's apple-themed. I figured I should come up with something more general, rather than selling my big fat idea. I was ready to do something different, more into production, now I'm still hanging in design. It's not like I hate it but there are times when you want to do something absolutely different. I hope I can get involved with Baybeats. Crosses fingers crosses toes. But well, what amazing luck, it clashes with orientation. I can only be down on the last 2 days which is good enough cos The Fire Fight is playing on sunday. Gonna be a marathon. Seniors camp, orientations and more orientations and then baybeats. Oh and then there's event the following week and then DnD. At least they're fun to slog for.

I haven't found time to visit the furniture design showcase. And the picasso etchings. Sigh. Let's all swing our legs and daydream for a while. I wonder if I can make it for Rampage at the Durian. Oh ya, I can't, GL camp. I knew I was missing something. I'm turning twenty this sunday, hmm, hoorah! Pop the champagne! Hmm I just got a cute idea for something. *ooh taking notes* Anyhow, can't wait to see everyone. Seems like every birthday is some sort of social gathering, almost like christmas. Well, that's the idea isn't it? Haven't seen some of you for a while, and some of you haven't seen some of you for a while. It's good to say hi again.

Since some of you asked for my birthday presents preferences. It will be good if I receive a lineless journal. Yes, I've have ran out of pages to write on my current one. That's about it. Or a post-it note-card will be cute. I love yellow post-its. Haha. I should bring post-its down to get my friends to sign.

Alright, I clear my pile of work tomorrow.

the suns ~ let your love shine through

2007-06-26T03:14:00.000+08:00

Why wouldn't the rain stop? I really need to hang my laundry, dammit.

I came up with a brilliant idea of the box of forgotten things. AH, nothing arty if you're asking me, it's just hmm an approach to complete a task, sorta. It's sorta linked to the guestlist and then to something else. While all these linked up, I thought of why people want to start all over again and mend their broken relationships or anything similar. I seldom or close to never do. I don't see the point. One being, I never hated anything in my life, except snails and maybe the hulk. What's wrong with letting things be? They made now, now. It's not exactly resigning to fate, but more like why think that things can be better when things are already great now? I mean okay I get that sometimes you mend stuff because things are exceptionally bad, but what if they're actually not? You get the drift? I never believed in bad times, it's all mental. It's more like insecurity and confidence. Or maybe it's an in-built sense of responsibility. But has it occurred to you that maybe this responsibility is more than redundant?

Or it's just a simple, "don't make things worse".

Anyhow, on to something else. I almost could feel the disappointment already. Just that it's not smack in the face yet. Sigh, I'm just waiting for it to be bestowed on me. HAHA. Oh it's nothing serious actually. Well, I fuss over the smallest things. Things are so twisted, I live on the memories of yesterday. It's never drastic when it's expected. Prepared for the worst, or so they say. I truly am a very positive person.

As usual, I lost my train of thoughts.

electrico ~ teenage queen

2007-06-24T15:43:00.000+08:00

Remember the Thunder. Rock for Good was good, Rock for Wayne is awesome. Best local gig I've attended by far. I knew The Suns from nigel, well they're all patricians. Probably heard them mock Zoe Tay on the radio too. Was glad I checked out these amazing bands on the shores of the tiny dot.

Heh! Leslie Low. Humpback Oak was reunited for the celebration of wayne's life. One of the first local bands I've heard. That song, If I Was Weak, I still know the words. Haha. Was wee bit disappointed that The Observatory didn't play. I don't know man, which is better? Anyhow, go leslie!! Hahaha.

This is the first time I heard West Grand Boulevard play. Been seeing their names plastered everywhere. They're good! The front guy looks like the front guy from The Fire Fight. Hmmmm. Oh I really like The Fire Fight. They remind me of Humpback Oak, okay that's a local comparison. They're like Death Cab, with both cheerful and mellow sides.

I can't remember what's this. Haha. It's either Electrico or Caracal. I'm quite hyped up for Baybeats and Singfest now. Ooh, the second time I heard The Great Spy Experiment. I don't adore them as much live, I don't know why.

A gig with no restrictions. Mosh and surf as much as you like. Not my kind of thing, I'm just a mild concert-goer. Haha.

Electrico. Amanda Ling is very pretty!!! But seriously, what was she wearing yesterday. Haha, oh pretty people are easily forgiven. I love their live sets. Very entertaining too. Ooh, The Fire Fight is an entertaining band too. Check them out alright?

A tribute band for Wayne, The Astroninja All-Stars. The usual mix and match band whenever somebody passes away. Though cliche, but I still love it, cos it's just fun. I absolutely can't stand Levan but oh well, it's okay. Inch sounds like Shiina Ringo. Haha, really. The performed Wayne's last project, meant for Levan. It was completed as an astroninja, a tribute to the drummerboy, Thunder. It's good.

The local scene is getting better by the gig. I'm proud of these local musicians who are so darn proud of what they're doing. Support local scene my friends.

Astroninja All-Stars ~ Thunder

2007-06-21T03:23:00.000+08:00

I'm in loveeeeeeeee~

with mandy graff! She's not the hottest model around but she is super lovable! I love her style really. She looks so good in Ed Hardy. Now I really wanna own Ed Hardy!!! Anyway she's this 1.8m german model spotted for Germany's Next Top Model. If you met up with me recently, I would have been raving on and on and on about the show because it is so super addictive!!! It's way better than any other top model shows but each episode is like 2 hours. Seriously, can it get any longer. It is really draggy but it is so much more real and the girls are so much hotter. Oh plus, the music is really out there, just watch it, you'll get it. HEIDI KLUM IS SUPER ADORABLE YOU FEEL LIKE EATING HER UP! And watch it for MANDY!!! SHE IS SO COOL! SO SUPER COOL! And her boyfriend is super hot. Hahahahaha!

and also with agyness deyn!!!! SHE IS SO ANDROGYNOUS I LOVE HER SO MUCH! I am so in love with blondes these days. I first saw her when I was looking at Henry Holland's slogan tees. She is so attractive. Jeremy Scott loves her too, and so do I, so do I!!Oh man, she seriously rocked the fashion world! Very, very edgy.

ANDANDAND! Also with a pair of silver sequinned leopard printed pointed flats from river island.... I fell in love with them the first time I saw it. And I saw them again today!! I am very determined to get them! VERY! I'm a size 6, feel free to surprise me anyone. HAHA!

Okay enough exclamations for the day! I AM A VERY HAPPY PERSON TODAY!! HELLO, YOU THERE! I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH TOO!

2007-06-20T00:28:00.000+08:00

Patissier cake is awesome as usual. Wonder what this flavour is, but there are chewy white, milk and dark choc bits within it. Simply A-MA-ZING! So winnie, do I get my 500 cupcakes book for birthday?

Anyhow, I'm an intern for a theatre production team now. It's pretty fun so far. Get to play with lots of things, pretty much an eye opener. This holiday been really fun actually. Been meeting a lot of people all over. Though I seriously want to work for fashion shows. Just very in love with runway shows. Then again, I don't want to sink into that industry. Sigh, I wanna meet my fashion superheroes one day too...

Let's talk about my intersem lessons. What an amazing first lesson. Yippi Yeo, yes yes, I agree too, I am so good at maths. I was running late for class, and I couldn't find TR80 at all! I was staring at the directory, it was like till 74, then starting at 88. Like where the fuck did 75-87 go!? Are they like floating classrooms or what!!? Please understand, other than literature, which normally I just follow jeremy or he just uses any TR that's not in use, I never ever know which TR I'm supposed to head and well, that's the only tutorial I had. I spent like half an hour locating that place, and great, once again late like there's no tomorrow. Ah, finally TR80 in sight! YAY! Everybody should give me a pat on the back! And after settling down and such, during the short break, my sensei asked where's my name on the list. AH, WHERE IS MY NAME!? VERY GOOD QUESTION! Tadah, she figured that I'm on the next class, cos I was very sure my class's at TR80. Why did I turn up earlier? Mr Yeo has already suggested on that lil box on the left, I thought 1530 - 1200 = 130. Yeah, I thought my class was at 1:30pm. I'm a maths genius.

Adventures continued in hall when I realised I was locked out of my room. Keys were still with lil soh. Mummy.... Actually I could have just get the hall office kiddies to open my room but I was too tired to move. While jio-ing MJ, I reached out for my stash of design whorishy-ful-ness in IdN in the lounge blissfully. Keys arrived, ah superme bounced back into comfort zone. That soh tong didn't clear his sweet wrappers off my desk... Ah oh well, I'm a nice person, it's okay!

Ooh german models are so hot~

pet shop boys ~ young offender

2007-06-16T16:59:00.000+08:00

I finally met winnie goh for soup spoon yesterday. And when I finally did, I forgot to bring her birthday present out. Yes, the only thing that I bought in Shanghai with effort. YES, be grateful. The other item that matched it was Kenji's cap, which was just screaming kenji when I stepped into the shop. Oh, while we're at this effort thing, I really wanted to get this skull head tee for amanda, it was like embroided, how super cool really. But it was almost a hundred bucks. Gees, I'm sorry. I didn't get to watch Shrek 3. Cos winnie doesn't like cine............... And seriously, what are you doing with my belt? But I kinda bought new pairs of jeans, I won't need a belt for a while. BUT STILL, such mentalities ain't right.

While I was doing my ritual magazines shopping yesterday, I picked 2 of the 3 that I usually buy each month. And I realised they all weigh the same in my heart. HAHA. I feel odd without one of them. Yes, this is when you realised superme is putting in effort in saving. Every month, it's IdN, I.D and Q. I left borders without I.D yesterday, despite Devon Aoki on the cover. Okay, people say she looks weird, I think she looks weird too, but I think she's cute. I like her alright? Anyhow, as I was reading the Eavis interview on Q, I was gonna flip to the fashion scene at Glastonbury in the pages of I.D. But alas, I forgot I didn't bring I.D home yesterday. SIGH, since ADM library has IdN and my sis buys IdN, maybe it's a sign that I buy the other 2 instead. Oh choices. Haha, yes it's not a big deal to most. But I decide what magazines to buy for the year in the beginning of the year. It's like, you know, part of the plan. HAHAHA.

pj harvey ~ down by the water

2007-06-13T15:10:00.000+08:00

Any takers? Wayne Thunder, the drummer from The Suns passed away weeks back. A tribute concert is held in his name to celebrate his life and contribution to the local rock scene. I was never a big fan, but the tunes I heard so far, they were good. This is gonna be a good act.

Some bitchy small talk. Whoever said that college is a good college should have a stash of my foot in his ass. Ah, no names mentioned. I get the GPA system sorta, a cruel truth for the unlucky, not-so-studious undergrads. What I don't get about this GPA thing, this yanks system, this college adopt it in 2006 when the yanks admitted that it is a lousy system to measure academic abilities after 10 years (was it 10?) in function. I thought we were supposed to learn from mistakes??? Who? Huh? Whaaaat? Should attendance play a bigger part? How about class participation? How about theory and papers are just a load of bullshit? Maybe electives shouldn't meddle so much with things that may actually matter on the piece of paper that states our specialisation? Gees, I speak from the point of an undergrad that hardly takes a paper and made to take modules that hardly matter to my degree. Yes, it's nice to know about science and maths, BUT NOT THAT MUCH!?

Another bitchy small talk. College authorities are truly a letdown. Who should stay in dormitories? Piorities for locals or foreigners? Or a balance would be nice, maybe? WRONG! Dorms are meant for foreigners! Oh it's not like they have to take a plane down to attend their lectures and tutorials. Isn't it more convenient for them to rent a place near college than to have locals rent a place near college and away from home (you know it's like, I'm not that far from home to live out but I'm gonna be late for school everyday if I travel like that)? Convinced about the distance points? No, not at all! Okay, maybe end of the day, we'll get our way but what about now? Why are doing all these uneccessary work then? Maybe, we could have spent the time consolidating the recommendation lists on studying. That would be nice, wouldn't it? Hall culture is a bizarre thing.

Very messed-up, disorganised systems. My sis warned me that my school sounds disorganised. Turns out fine, but boy, she wasn't too far from wrong either.

Anyhow, I still gotten my single room.

2007-06-10T18:13:00.000+08:00

You think my dad will kill me if I say I wanna do a summer intensive program at parsons next year? Haha. I've calculatored, it'll cost me around $10k odd? And I thought of doing fashion design. I have 5 months to think about it. I'll be in NY next year around this time! Oh well, moolah does the talking.

http://www.parsons.edu/studies/index.aspx

In need to come up with a savings plan. I WANNA GO NYC!

2007-06-09T17:08:00.000+08:00

I say good day.

Oh, and Paris is back behind the bars. I guess the Paris deal doesn't quite work. Celebrity justice of house arrest? That's too funny to be true. I was prompted to watch how Sarah Silverman dissed Paris Hilton during MTV Move Awards on Youtube. Haha. Nice one sarah, that was mean. Anyhow, I do agree Miss Hilton looked terribly sorry and everything, but get over it man, you're not getting the worse, next please.

Guess what? Glastonbury is here again, and as usual superme doesn't have the moolah to travel over. I'll stick to buying the glastonbury issue of Q to make myself wee bit happier. Well, on a brighter note, the line-up for the year isn't exactly my favourites. Live Earth is here again. So far, the political side hasn't hit me as much. If I happen to find a pot of gold, I may just fly down to one of the destinations. I'm not asking for much, Australia is good enough for me.

I ran out of things to say.

2007-06-06T20:01:00.000+08:00

Some overdue photos from lil soh's birthday

lil soh with iggy and frisky

lil soh with a lot of cake on his face

And yea, we threw a lil surprise celebration for him say two weeks back? Kenji just couldn't get over that there was dance practice that day. Once in a while, till today, he still harps on it.

Let's talk about SP kids camp for a while. SHEE MUN IS AMAZING! OMFG! I totally agree that kids may be cute but they are definitely deadly. Running around and catching them the entire day is insane. Definitely insane. Not just one, but 12 of them. For two days, I've been called lame, stupid, smelly, tomboy, ugly amongst many other flattering names. On a brighter note, after this camp, I'm actually quite hyped up about OC camps. Let's just hope a fair number of seniors turn up.

I think these days hall is just about MJ. And I've decided to go home to take a break from this madness. Haha. I get quite lucky one someone touches my shoulder, ah amazing. Junwen and Kenji are as usual the legendary sway kids. After days of battle, my capital is actually quite even out. Pointless, isn't it? Oh the magical charms of the chinese game.

2007-05-31T18:13:00.000+08:00

Xue Shan Fei Hu withdrawal symptoms. AHHHH! Is Huanlong gonna lend me part II soon!?!?? To all those friends whom it may concern, sorry I've been ignoring messages and turning up late for our dates, IT WAS JUST XSHF. AND YOU SHOULD WATCH IT TOO! And those who managed to get me out of the house, lucky you.

Yesterday's trip down to Zouk was amazing, amazingly crowded. I swear the crowd was bigger than during christmas eve. It was just vesak day man. Everyone should go home. Ah, familiar faces with huge white chandliers decking the dance floor. Alas, me and anqi's chemistry ran out, I didn't get to see her yesterday. Why would she go MOS on wednesday? Tsk. And Weizhi retreated to St James? That's how crowded it was at kim seng. Despite siam-ing to butter, it was full house all down the road. And down the road, the boyfriend hit her and she slapped him hard twice. Anyhow, it was not my day at all. Had half the mind to go Play, but I figured there's no point too.

Anyway, if hock says I'm random, WHO'S THE RANDOM ONE?

me:(ah incoming text, oh unfamiliar number...)
hock: Lol hawk here. guess wad i'm doing man. ghost hunting in changi haha i'm tt cool.
me: Haha cool, you're damn cool. What the hell seriously?
hock: Lol fun ok. i'm with the singapore paranormal investigators lol.

Oh now I own a very scary lighter. Ooh, scared. Ask me for a light soon.

2007-05-27T03:43:00.000+08:00

Oh the dreadful headache. It's as though a hangover, just that I haven't been drinking.

Lies.

Haha. I'm happy. Managed to catch up with good ole buddies these days. Met anqi alicia cherk on friday at the Bungy Bar. Pizza is good. Oh is food the only thing I could think of? Haha. I MISS THEM SO MUCH REALLY! JC seemed so long ago, suddenly. Good news and sorta bad news. I finally returned CJ his $35 through cherk. BUT turns out CJ didn't turn up for polo training this morning. ARGH! Fat boy, when will you ever be more disciplined? Swim boy, swim. And my starcrossed bestie. Nevertheless, I met nigel after a million years today. It hit me it was super long ago since I talked-talked to him.

nig: aye what happened to the scissors guy?
me: AYE!? what scissors guy?
nig: that scissors guy la.
me: !?!?!?!?!

It took me a while to figure who he was talking about. AH THAT SCISSORS GUY. That was like ten years ago. Haha. Went on to bitch about people like err jerome, who only picks up girls' calls and reject guys especially nigel cyrus lim's and gabriel who's oh-so-hot after so many years and I still think he's super hot and his funny weirdass cute exgirlfriend six years ago... Ah, the list goes on. He's still as guai lan after all these years. Thanks to nigel cyrus lim wing yong, I have free accomodation in HK! That's the only reason I love you bestie. HAHA! We'll go Lan Kwai Fong at night alright? Seriously, I think only nig is retarded enough to go there in the morning.

Lousy headache.

kaiser chiefs ~ angry mob

2007-05-26T15:00:00.000+08:00

Let's talk about Tai Kang Lu. It's like a larger scale of Arab Street in Singapore. An amazing artsy, poseur place with a million places to chill. Maybe not so much of the exotic food, unlike Arab, there are many galleries around the area. It's like an art street. I bought winn's birthday present here! (are we playing ping pong soon?) I love this place really. A bottle of decent red wine costed me like $22. Don't you love Shanghai already?

The fashionistas of Shanghai.

Love this tree. It's something I would do. Ah, someone beat me to it. Oh wells. Hahaha.

The retail staff of this shop is cute. I'm sorry I didn't have the guts to take a picture of him to share. Anyhow, there are many lil boutiques that sell young designers' stuff. A few in Tai Kang, mostly in Chang Le Lu, Huai Hai Lu. It's like Club Street, Amoy Street in Singapore but times ten, maybe more.

They sell pretty odd stuff that's cute but don't seem that practical to me. So I got none. There's this stuff toy that's really cute though. It's just a chicken drumstick, and it comes in like different sizes. I think this lil place is hongkie-owned. Yeah.

I love Tai Kang Lu!

lynyrd skynyrd ~ what's your name

2007-05-22T19:36:00.000+08:00

Very in love with 2 films lately, mainly for simple, well executed plots with yet again. simple, straighforward lovely scripts. If I'm to choose the song for these films, it's gonna be The Rolling Stones' Satisfaction. Coincidentally, or maybe not, it's used in one of the films. Oh and I forgot to introduce. C.R.A.Z.Y, a 2005 french film based in Quebec and The History Boys, a 2006 film based on the award-winning play of the same name.

Something that many would have experienced. Exams, teachers, lessons and more lessons. What's poetry reading, really? What good does literature and history do for us? I love Mr Oscar Wilde for as long as I can remember. Has he subconsciously taken a turn in my own life? A conscious or subconscious take on materialism and the uselessness of art, or plain superficiality. What makes a cynic cynical? It's never maths or physics, not entirely.

As the film provokes my two brain cells, how should we look at the holocaust? Stalin, a tyrant or a amiable leader? Can we love Hitler? Or can history actually be poetic? Put it across simple, soldiers have names too, if we actually remember. Why do history happen? The need or the want or the desire or temptation to change things, alter things, make things move. Well but what do all these mean again? Rudge did say, "How do I define history? It's just one fucking thing after another".

Embrace your outstanding moment now, my best way of commerating it. It is not just knowledge or analysis. History, a pessimistic take, would be the look of death as Camera Lucida suggests. History, again, can be nothing more but simple joy and laughters of my follies made a long time or not so long ago. Follies, no one regrets on the follies made in life. You'll love your mistakes in no time, I believe.

True image or personal identity? What can we depend on more? Dilemma, a common sticky situation where everybody deals with all the time. Oh-so-common, that they're really all the same. This choice or that, just make up your mind.

A common theme for both films, but more mentioned in The History Boys, subjunctive. The situation or feeling of 'what if'. A common moment associated with growing up or transition. An old fresh thought. Shall we be allowed to shine as we may? Or does the intensity to outshine or impress lingers so much that we fade off quietly? This balance thing drives people insane! How can we ever cope with such insanity? There's so much and too much to do!

And I say again, whatever that doesn't kill me.

For today, or for forever if you changed your mind, answers are not just answers. Facts are not just facts. Simply, what is right, can be wrong and so wrong, that I can place a price on it so big that an asteroid will hit your bedroom.

the rolling stones ~ satisfaction

2007-05-21T16:57:00.001+08:00

These are long overdue. My last trip to MOS before I flew off. Butbutbutbut, I love them very much!

the bag counter was full as usual. so first stop to the restrooms...

Seriously, guess who took this photo?

and cheng hong snipped off her locks while i was away.

the bao face versus the bao face

spy on the looking-gay-in-this-photo-couple-of-caucasians in the background

2007-05-21T16:26:00.000+08:00

Back on my sunny island. Shall keep the talking to when I see my kiddies. I prefer the words spoken than written for these lovely anecdote. Haha, yes, that's true. Anyhow, here are some visuals.

The Museum of Contemporary Art in Shanghai. Love this place.