Wednesday, January 20, 2010
terrible.

haven't felt so affected for a while. everything feels so heavy you get it that you're too upset for tears. not just totally pointless, you can't even tear for the sake and symbolism of tearing.

you wish you can really walk away. will be great if i can add "fuck this, fuck it" to conclude.

but you know you can't.

good to know isn't it? i still have some feelings over some stuff, i'm not heartless. haha yeah good to know. i can almost hear my heart beat, not in the excited manner. more like i wish it can stop for a while. not trying to end lives, no never, but to let me escape for a moment. ah fleeting moment, what a romantic thought.

do i have too much pride to just move on?

let's not talk more.

today i felt useless. fuck, i hate waiting for traffic lights. fuck these lights and out of stock items.