Friday, March 10, 2006
My entire room smells of beer. My dad, not me. I can get drunk just by entering my room.

I was thinking about what I wrote in my journal yesterday. Wow, now I have journalled my journal. Basically it was about addiction versus true love. I don't mean true love entirely. How about habit versus fondness? Addiction and true love just sounds psychotic. Haha. How do you tell them apart, especially when you just can't step out of it to take a peek? Oh I just realised another similarity between the two issues I had in mind. Secret. MWAAAAH! Haha.

I was sketching out an idea of another series of graphics but I realised it might just kinda look like the one I already had and the other set that I had started planning ever since portfolio-era started. Not creative enough. I'M SORRY! I filled up the bank bond today, and the terms and conditions got me thinking. Can I ever dance around the system? Aim of the evening, come up with something. SOMETHING. Or just fill up the damn zoo application. Haha.

I was looking at the royal picture three years ago. The only difference I spot, as in the only real difference, is melly is darker now. HAHA! Seriously, we all look hmm the same.

I talked to a customer for thirty-five minutes today, go figure.

If I can earn money by weighing the amount of air I breathe out, I might just be rich. Or for every ten clouds I count, I get to have a dollar. Hur.

I was thinking about the conversation I had a few days back. To protect the other party, no names shall be mentioned and sensitive terms shall be used in superme lingo. WHAT!? Haha. I think I sounded really dumb and inferior to the other kid. But I strongly opposed to his mindset seriously. It's too FA. That's why I had never been interested, well, because of my attitude mainly. Call me commercialised but I do not lack the interest and spirit. Oh, I'm not against this kid if you're wondering. Not pissed or angry, I'm just thinking about what he said. I do agree with what he had to say but those are never my piority. It's like how I said most of my works do not work around a concept delibrately. I guess it's one of the reason why I insist that art is not useless. Seriously, if art is based on just expressions and soul, it will never be useful. Okay, fine, it will capture another person's soul, so? NEXT! Let's see. Say a piece of music. You can put in your entire soul into your playing but admit it, some pieces are just boring, plain boring, bad composition. Oh yes, maybe it sounds hmm rather touching but it will always lack of something. It takes balance alright? No, it's not just balance. My take on this, you need to have a practical framework of the entire thing first, then fill it up with your so-called soul. To me, that's still crap but well, it makes it easier for everyone to udnerstand. It's more of expression and style than anything. Maybe that's a definition of soul as well, right. Sorry, I'm developing my most hated poseurish queer-ass artist mood.

I've kicked one of my denials away. Oh one and a half.

franz ferdinand ~ what you meant