Saturday, February 19, 2005
Gossips and bitching will always remain as that. But when you hear about something that mean a lot to you to reach only that level, it's just more than that. I feel very shaken in a way. It seems that all my big talk and high-level of thinking is merely nothing.

I know this is very superficial and to think that I would think into something like that. Superficial and shallow me indeed. But let's just put it down until I can find an answer for myself. Somebody thinks what I see in deon is plain dumb. Okay, I take that in a rather offensive way. Basically because I went a whole round to conclude what kinda person should I treat him as. To think that somebody thinks that I'm just not smart enough to see through him. I shan't defend myself on why I don't think he's such a lousy kid. I won't say I loooooove him but he's a cool friend. Okay, the point is not deon actually. It's more like I quite disappointed in this somebody. I kinda thought he will sorta get my drift of thoughts. I don't really care if this somebody actually dislike deon but why so judgemental?

Okay I hate to use somebody in my blog but I don't want this to be offensive. Oh my gosh, what am I saying? It's like pure ridiculous. But forget it, safety line.

I dislike this dude in band but get it straight I don't go against him. How should I say? I don't understand about blackstabbing. Why do you go through so much effort to get back at this person that you don't like? Just don't bother, isn't that all? I minimise all talks to him because I just don't like to talk to him. I don't hate him but I afraid mr moses koi might just go around telling the whole world about my statement. People who know me well enough should know who this person is and understand why, those who don't please understand that my way of dislike is not strong and I'm not a biased person. I think I only need to explain to the people who reads this, the kids who are worth explaining to.

At this point of time. I really need someone whom I can trust and relate to and believe and listen. Catch me back to reality.

Call it bitchy call it shallow. I just wanna hope there's people out there who actually believe in what I have to say. Let the rest of the world hate me, I hope you hate me the most.

+mood+ down
+listening+ bic runga ~ sway