Tuesday, January 04, 2005
Long day today but not tiring because there's like tons of breaks in between. Quite a screwed timetable. For many across the level too. Typical saint admin. Work's quite fun actually. I'm beginning to like studying again. Haha, good for me and I thank my prayers. Man, I needed spiritual support. People who know me should know that I'm never the religious kind seriously but do need something to turn to especially this year, something ever ready for me. And if I'm discipline enough to do my daily prayers, I'll be discipline enough to study. After all I do agree with buddhism on ying gou, meaning you reap what you sow.

Had a lil bitching session with crystal anqi and cherk today. Gurlie talk. Okay, so cherk didn't really say much and not much he can say actually. I don't know. I've never really into these things like are what I believe in really feasible and stuff like that. I know anqi and crystal don't agree with me. Does it really matter? They're the ones attached anyway. Wait till my As are done with before I get someone else lah. Anqi is quite right about me actually, always say say only lah, never really get down to doing it. Explains why I've never really went out to go after like the 101 kids that I thought were cool. I know my relationships are always screwed. Especially the last one that got really messy, not entirely, just my mental struggles. But can everyone stay simple and happy with their other one? How I wish nana's blog writes Happy 7th...man, I can't seem to put down the names.

Why why? Why do I like him so much I can't seem to answer that myself. There's something I refused to admit to him or anyone else, not before, make no sense now as well. The more I think about it the more I know it's impossible but sigh, that's just it man. I really wish that we're still together. Serious, very serious. I know, it's not there anymore. It doesn't work this way, not my way. Maybe anqi and crystal are right, I'm doing injustice to myself.

Oh I got zam by rugby ball today. By yurong. Ouch. I was talking to ahmah on the field talking talking, suddenly, duuuuuuu at my left ear. Oh my gosh, it hurts big time. Oh man, it's really damn painful lah! Was momentarily deaf for 10min. Ouch. Ouch. Ouch.

Went for individuals and bitched with stu eugene kums then kums left and came lester the molester. Hahaha. He should be the next MO, so he can be MO lester. So dumb right? And he keeps saying I'm 31. -_-" What's with my section this year? All dudes. Lester, andrew and this temasek bitchy boy according to eugene. Siew meng seems to have disappeared. Oh well, trombone section seems huge this year. Hope they stay and love the band.

These days, nothing seems to cheer me up. I want to laugh but there's not even something make me smile. Why?

Off to work. Oh, gotten new spectacles. Happy. :D

+mood+ hardworking
+listening+ shiina ringo ~ akane sasu kiro terasaredo