Thursday, January 27, 2005
Goodmorrow world of thou.

For a moment I felt so defeated. Just a night without enough sleep I feel so drained. For a while I felt like cutting myself. But I'm a sore loser. I refused to be called a failure. Geok asked if I feel the stress. Big time. I should seriously stop procrastinating and do some actual work. For a while I felt like running up to this person and hug tightly. Sometimes you just gotta realise thoughts are still thoughts. Thoughts are not actions, they may lead to some actions but some just don't.

I badly need an entire day without work to rest my soul. A day to bask in the sun and ton till the sun rise again. Kid, barely studied for a month. Hahaha. In a way I like such stress as long as I don't burn out. I don't believe I'm stupid.

I wish I can mute the world. I wish I live in a colourblind mixed up world. I wish my lil clowns will always be putting up acts. I wish the orchestra on the green lawn will never stop playing. I wish fruit scents are everywhere. I wish I can wish for whatever I want.

I don't understand why is it so difficult to talk casually? Why is it so difficult to talk about anything, anything at all? Why must we be so careful in the way we speak? If the wrong message is passed, is it really my fault? For a while, I'm not thinking straight, is it my fault? All I want is for you to say something, anything at all. Maybe all the rest wants from me is just to say something I really mean. I never really understood what I want. Maybe maybe, fireworks are on my wishlist.

I gave you my word.

But some words just keep replaying.

What do you remember?

It's a battle where the winner wouldn't be delighted.

+mood+ blank
+listening+ kylie minogue ~ chocolate