Thursday, January 20, 2005
End of funeral. Surrealism around me.

Sold 2 funfair tickets today.

Sometimes you wonder if someone tells you enough. I'm sorry if it hurts. I've boldly learnt to only think of happy things and Gohonzon and shut the rest of the world. Sometimes you wonder if this is self-denial. I wish everyone all the best.

I bought my Missy Elliot Adidas shoes. Blue red white. Americanism. Nothing great, just a pair of shoes. Buying slippers soon.

Saw cirong and michelle yesterday on the way to my granddad's funeral. Sometimes I don't like it that I have too many people that I know around. Is that very angsty? I saw jerome at Pointers while accompanying stuart for his haircut. It's so tiring to smile and wave to everyone.

Sometimes I wonder about wendy. She's there more for me that I am for her. I'm rather apologetic. Cheer up my friend. I'm sorry I've been busy with so many things. JC has deprieved me of many things, snatched away many interests from me and introduced me many loser things that I never need to know.

Am I such a loser? I think of living in my whole world all the time. Am I such a hypocrite? I smile and wave so much while I detest it so much.

Anyway I had fun playing with my cousins. Everyone's right, you can depend on your family the best. Okay a lil amendments, a few friends too. I've changed. Hahaha.

+mood+ numb
+listening+ garbage ~ you look so fine