Sunday, November 28, 2004
Woah. Rise and shine. Dreamt of Felicia Chin after tau kept saying she's hot. Hahaha. BEANS ARE YOU JEALOUS?

Okay, I didn't think of anything on my bed. Nothing much to rant. But I'm writing because both toilets are occupied. Lalala. Going to Glosz's place later for lunch. Sounds fun. Hahaha. You know right, Nelly's Dilemma always brings back a lot of flashbacks. First it's the night nadene met natasha, then the roadtrip in jas's dad's car to hougang, then my sis's dislike towards ugly nelly and his inability to sing, then zhijian's rant about my anti-black-music. When one accumulate more and more memories, do we necessary grow more mature? Is it possible that you don't learn anything from experience? And listening to the song, sometimes do people get what you mean when you say you don't know how much you mean to me? More like, do people feel it? If people always feel lesser than what they truly mean to you, is it too painful for you to take? Or do you truly accept whatever that's coming? Well, to me people are more precious to me than things but I rather handle things more than people. It's actually quite a dilemma if you don't quite follow my train. So what do want? Memories or reality? Both are harsh sometimes. When you decide to forget about the depressing memories, can you still keep the happy ones? It's a mix feelings towards memories. It's good to fall back on but sometimes they set you thinking too much. When I look back I want to as though feeling it all over again but not reflect and think about it. Now my memory is stuck during my Sec3 Sec4 days. Maybe because that song was like hot then. The route from the canteen to my classroom is vivid in my mind. Haha, how I wrestle nadene and ended up kissing the ground. I can't say I've got no regrets but they don't matter to me really. These days I wonder why my entries sound as though I'm ending my life. Nah, just useless scribbling. And maybe because I wanna feel cosy, getting inspiration for my christmas decorations. Oh man, many things to be done. Can't things be simpler?

+mood+ mixed
+listening+ nelly featuring kelly rowland ~ dilemma