Sunday, November 14, 2004
Rise and shine. Oh, it's actually afternoon already. Hahaha, beautiful day today. Most days are beautiful. Haha, seldom wake up feeling horrible. Actually I've never. Always believed in beautiful days. Haha, yup. I live for happy thoughts.

Oh man, more things on a shopping list. Apple Photo Ipod. Oh man, that's like super beautiful. $888. THANKS DAD! Hahahaha. Okay, I think that's gonna take me a while. Oh man, and I'm quite in love with Guess stuff lately. OH MAN! And I wanna get Robbie's Greatest Hits CD. There's so much shopping to be done. What's the occasion man? Okay, get back from Thailand first alright? Hahaha. Oh, I wanna know that lil poseur with the cap that I wanted to buy but sold out in the neighbourhood. I just have this feeling he's younger than me. It's good to make new shopping buddies. OH MAN, THAT'S SO WRONG!

Hahaha. You know I always have the mentality that I can get whoever whatever I want if I really try? Hahahaha. That's very bad. I'm a lil too fucking confident sometimes. Hurt my ego someone. It was like so possible to climb straight up after every defeat. That sounds good, but no, it's not good all the time. And sometimes I just think I'm too good for everything else. Oh that only applies when I'm desperately trying to console myself. Slap-in-the-face such an attitude may be, but come on, think about it, I'm just an extremist on such things. Everybody does this too. Oh people. And I do not speak in a funny accent. Jason says I do when I'm in the sia lan mood. Hahahaha, what the hell. Am not phoney, I insist.

Finished Little Friend. Man, I kinda like the book though I took forever to finish it. The book's good. It's like the powder analogy. The climax hits right there and poof, it's just that. Hahaha, it's a heavy read though. Okay, I'm so gonna finish corpsing by toby litt. I haven't gotten my month's of national geographic. Oh, this is so not organised!

Oh was wondering the impact of speech and words. I mean people often say action speaks louder than words right? Words do have their own effects too yup? Hmm, friends of mine, what do you think? Crystal told me the other day that she was grateful to me that I've let her settle down in SAJC if not she would have sunk into depression. Oh man, firstly I'm touched then I thought about jesselyn. I could have helped her too right? Maybe don't see her around was just a convenient excuse. Argh. And then I thought of how people feedback to me that they thought through what I've said and how people nod to acknowledge my so-called words of wisdom and my 101 prep talks in cedar. Hmm, somehow my bullshit has gone far. Does what I say reflect on my intelligence? How I manipulate my bullshit? Okay is this about me or speech?

Anyway, my biatch sistah - Stuart 'Blarck Marn' James Lee TM absent himself from band practice yesterday, conveniently escaped the marker treatment from the bandies. Hahaha, and we planned for 2 days for the whole operation. Aww man. Hahaha, he's so gonna get it from us. Lalala. And melvyn got the shit instead, 2% of it only though. Okay, I'm so excited for BBQ later. HAHAHAHAHA. I'm gonna die young.

+mood+ mellow
+listening+ kylie minogue ~ in your eyes