Monday, August 09, 2004
Why are you always not there when I want to talk to you? Why must it always be everyone else but you? You're the one that said I don't tell people enough things, I don't trust you. Fuck, what happens now? I don't know if I actually did the right thing. It gets irritating after a while. Sometimes I don't even know what you want. I know you don't know what I want. Fine, you're troubled, I can't help you. And I thought I knew you.

Javin is so wrong about this. Yes and I'm not disciplined enough. Doesn't mean that he should provoke me. It just proves me right anyway. But that's not what I want. I didn't intend to wait at all, why did I even bother? And so what do I want? I know you're not gonna console me. But it's not fair. I'm not trying to get your attention. Fine fine, it's all about me, it's my fault. Are you happy now? Why do I even bother?

Happy things don't just occur.

+mood+ foul
+listening+ kylie minogue ~ outta my head