Tuesday, July 27, 2004
MY COMP IS IN WORKING CONDITION AGAIN! Yay!
Anyway, gotten FOC for common tests. Hahaha, still cleared. Since the last time I updated my blog, Huimin seems to be very disturbed and depressed. WHY? I don't know. Work maybe, more work maybe, and maybe somemore work. Actually, I don't know why I can't cope. It's like, shouldn't be a big deal to me. Like what's up? Hahaha, I don't know, I should be happy I'm designing things. Just that the fucked up freehand isn't working again. Like what the fuck.

What's on my design list?
1) Band Batch Tee
2) Band Official Banner
3) Band Dinner Hall Layout/Decor
4) Band Dinner Invitations
5) Band Dinner Doorgifts
6) TJC Climbing Tee
7) TJC Climbing Farewell Decor

Actually last 2 I can just don't bother lah. But, see got time or not lah. I'm a helpful kid. Actually, I don't know if I'm really a perfectionist or I'm just out of ideas. I took like 2months to do the batch tee. According to ZJ is because I'm the one gonna wear it, that's why I took forever. In a way, that's right lah, why would I wanna wear ugly tees.

You know these days are like rather gloomy. Other than the times I tried to keep myself awake, I'm either down or asleep. Those times, refer to Huimin's high times. Hmm, I don't know. Been thinking quite a bit lately. Over very ridiculous things actually. You know when people thinks that you're sensitive when you're actually not? Like, it gets on me. Like say I just said, okay. IT DOES NOT MEAN THAT I'M ANGRY! Like oh damn, that gets me really angry actually. I don't know, is that communication breakdown? I mean, have I portrayed myself to be someone that cares? Like I really don't care. I mean it! I DON'T CARE! Sometimes you need not show me your extra concern, I don't know if I should be touched by it or something. Okay, put it this way, I'm a nonchalent, ignorant, insensitive brat. I'm just aware that there are still people around me. Take note that I'm not angsty or agressive at this moment? I'm just spilling out some things that I wanna express.

Okay fine, so there was just this time I got pissed with ZJ. You know, I hate people who stood me up. Fine, wasn't your fault. I'm negotiable, I still listen yup? And fine, I got over that, I shouldn't rant. Wasn't a big deal too lah, I mean I was sleeping anyway right? Hahahaha. It's just the things I've to hear lah alright? Just kinda gets into me. Not really the kind that listen to long and pointless explanations. When I said you're forgiven, I meant it. DO I NEED TO REPEAT? Actually if my only audience (libing) is reading, I'm talking in general and referring to many many events yup? Hahaha, a small note for me to take too. Hahaha.

Alright, anymore updates? SFW's cool, okay fine, it's bad. I hate it. Band's cool. Me and ZJ are cool. Cleared some stuff up. Not that we quarrelled, just made some things clear before we do. Not a pessimistic thought, something practical ya? If only I've got time to clear PUNCH up. Later. Okay, saturday gonna meet Nigel for Battles of the Bands. Mat rock never dies. Hahaha. Gonna see him on Sunday again for that soccer thing. Hmm, how I complained I seldom get to see him in the past. Now's like overdose. Someone has gotten over him. I'm happy for her. My bro's not worth the wait and love lah. He doesn't deserve such stuff. Hahaha.

Nothing more I guess. I'm just deprieved of updating my blog! Hahaha.

+mood+ sleepy
+listening+ Gavin Friday ~ Angel